The Unseen Part Of My Life

The Breaking

Imagine drowning in a river, longing for breath, and suddenly somebody saves you. Wouldn't it be the best feeling? That is how I felt when I heard his voice.

15 Years Ago.

"So this is it?" Ria said trying to control her tears. "Yeah" Shaan replied. "Seriously? How? How could you just say yes?" Ria yelled. "I am sorry Ria but this is the last time you are hearing from me" Shaan replied. "I hate you. Please don't do this. This can not be our fate. We promised we wouldn't leave each other then why now? why after 5 years?" Ria said cracking with emotions. "Ria please it is already hard on me. Don't make it harder." Shaan said. "It is hard for me too. Do you think this is a joke?" She could barely speak. "I have to go. I love you and I always will. Take care. I will see you in heaven if not in this life" Shaan said and hung up.

Back to Present

A tear rolled down my cheek as those flashbacks hit me. My heart was breaking again. I was hesitant to turn around but I did. Shaan was alone too. He came towards me and I could feel my heartbeat growing faster, I could feel butterflies in my stomach all over again. It was like all the love that I had lost once was coming back to me. How can he make it possible after all these years? I thought.

Finally, he was standing in front of me. After 15 years. All those desires, passion, and dreams awakened. I wanted him to hold me again. But I hated him too. How could he just casually call me? He was the one who left.

"Hey, how are you?" He asked trying not to be awkward. "I am good, thanks. How are you?" I replied trying to sound confident. "I am good too. So you are traveling alone?" He asked. "Yeah and how about you?" I asked. "Same," He said. "Oh, okay," I said. Things were dead silent and we were trying not to be awkward. It wasn't awkward for me, it was overwhelming. "So where are you heading?" He asked trying to break the awkwardness. "Some beach resort near the island. I really don't know my husband had booked everything" I replied. "Your husband? okay," He said. "Yeah. I think I should leave we shouldn't be talking. So see you in heaven if not in this life. Bye," I said and left from there.

As I got out of the airport I saw a guy standing with a sign "Mr. and Mrs. Bhatt" I saw that sign and boarded the cab to reach my hotel. My heart was pounding way too much. It was sad. My heart was aching. I couldn't see him. I couldn't meet or talk to him because it wasn't right. As soon as I sat inside the cab, Rihaan called me again. I picked up this time. "Where the hell are you?" He said trying not to lose his cool. "In Maldives" I replied. "Stop kidding Ria. It is not possible, I know you cannot go that far alone" He said. "I am in the Maldives for real," I said. "Okay. Send me a picture of the hotel when you reach there" He said. He didn't believe me.

I reached the hotel and sent him a picture of the room and selfies too. He called me again, "Are you seriously out of your mind?" He yelled. "No, I can be independent too. I left a letter on the table read it, I need to go and get fresh and take some rest now" I replied. "Okay, Skype me once you are done," He said.

I wasn't ignoring him on purpose, I wanted him to realize my importance. I knew he would realize a few things once I am away.

I took a bath and ordered some food. Once the food was served, I asked the waiter to get me a map for the city so that I could explore the city. He told me there are tourist guides available at the hotel and if I wanted I could hire them for 2-3 days. I told him I would give it a thought and let him know in the morning.

I switched on the TV, there was nothing for me on the TV so I switched on my laptop and connected my speakers and watched Grey's Anatomy while I ate my dinner. It was the first time in my whole life that I traveled alone. I ate food and then I called Rihaan. "Hey, babe," I said. "Hey, how are you? I am sorry for being harsh on you" he said. "It's okay. I miss you" I replied. "I miss you too. I know I have been terrible but I love you and I wanna prove it come back to give me a chance. I promise we will visit the Maldives together next month" he said. "Rihaan, please. I don't wanna come back now. I want to be alone for a while and I will come back in a week" I said. "Okay. I hope this gap doesn't separate us. I have a feeling that things will change" He replied.