The Unseen Part Of My Life

The Going Back

My love for Shaan never let me love Rihaan. No matter what he did I always forgave him. Choosing his career over me did not hurt me but leaving without telling me did. I expected more. I expected him to at least tell me that he was going away. I didn't deserve an end like this.

I couldn't wait to go back to my home, back to Rihaan. As soon as I reached hotel I called Rihaan to talk to him and I couldn't wait anymore to see him. I wanted to see him. I wanted to go back and fix everything.

We spoke for hours and finally I fell asleep. The  next morning I knew it was my last day so I got up and decided to spend the time in hotel. I started packing and clicked some pictures. This trip was one of my best decisions. After all I think my parents were right. They were right about me getting married to Rihaan. They knew what was best for me. 

The day passed by and another day came. I woke up to see there was a letter at the door. Somebody slid it from the outside. I thought it was from the hotel staff. So I took it and started reading it ,

"Dear Ria,

You know when I said I love you I really meant it. I have loved you since day 1. Though I had to make some changes because it wouldn't have worked out well if I had listened to you and left my career. I know me leaving without informing you was the worst but what's worst than leaving was you leaving me like this day before yesterday. I didn't expect you to behave this way. I am happy with my wife but I could never love her like I loved you. I won't be able to. Life really changed after London. I missed you. All the time I only thought about you but it was for our good that we didn't speak. 1 month after I moved to London, I came back to see you. When I reached India, I visited your house. Your parents weren't happy when they saw me. They told me that you got married a week back. I was broken. It was my fault. I couldn't believe it when they told me because I was hoping that maybe just maybe you would come out of that room and tell me that you were not married and you wanted to come back. I left my job in London and came back only for you and what I found out was that you were married and then I met her Bhoomi. I didn't fall for her in a month or  a year. It took me 5 years to fall for her and we got married 10 years ago. We have a kid and she is 4 now. Me and Bhoomi have been very patient with each other. I love her but never more than you. When we met at the airport I was hoping that maybe you would tell me you still loved me but you didn't say so and I knew you did but we couldn't help it. We both had moved ahead. What sucks is that we both had a chance and I failed at mine and I know you always passed. I miss you but I hope we can be friends. Here is my number, call me sometime I just want to be your friend. I never stopped caring about you and your husband is one lucky guy. I hope you can love him and move ahead happily. Those pictures tell a lot to me.

From
Shaan
One of our love letters but this is the last one,
The closure we never got."

This made me cringe. I regretted my decision of not telling him that I was being forced to marry. I went outside my door to see if he was there and he wasn't. 

He did come back but I wasn't there. He loved me too and it was too late for all this. Suddenly I thought if he really loved me so much he shouldn't have left in the first place. So i decided to leave all of this behind. 

I tore that paper and prepared to leave. I got ready as Rihaan asked me to and left from the hotel. I left from the hotel and reached airport. I was waiting for my flight and waiting to go back and this time I wanted to give all of me to him. 

I texted Rihaan that I was going for spa and I would keep my phone off for that period of time. I boarded my flight. Throughout my flight I kept on checking our pictures. Pictures of the time we got married and had kids and how unhappy I looked. I wanted new pictures with happy faces and love. I couldn't sleep at all while going back. 

Finally after 5 hours which felt like 5 days my flight was about to land. I was excited as well as nervous. After getting down at the airport I went to get my luggage and booked a cab. And decided to surprise Rihaan. 

As soon as the cab arrived I boarded the cab and left for Rihaan's office. After dealing with traffic for almost 1 hour I finally reached his office. I took my luggage called one of our common friend downstairs so that I could surprise Rihaan. He helped me reach Rihaan's cabin while Rihaan was in a meeting. 

I waited patiently for Rihaan to come back.