The Real Deal

Chapter Five

Dear Diary

So it's been a couple weeks since I wrote anything, that's because I haven't had the energy but basically Dad was allowed to come home after pleading his case but there will be a court hearing after Christmas, which isn't all that far away. Shelley finally came home later that night, she was at her Mum's, which I find weird because her and her Mum haven't talked in ages but that's the least of my problems. Dad is taking every day as it comes now as he 100% sure he's going to jail even though he's innocent but it's his ex's word against his. Which sucks cause all you need to do is look at Dad and his ex and you will know there is no way in hell he would be able to rape her. She is twice Dad's weight and she's like a head taller then him. Therefore if he had tried to do anything she would have been able to fight him off. Gosh she makes me so angry but Dad has told me not to bother going after her as it will just make him look bad.

Jace has been great through out all of this so I'm glad I have him to hang out with when things get too tough at home. Dad and Shelley seem to be fighting a lot, about what I don't know I usually put my head phones on and listen to music. I wish things weren't like this it totally sucks. With things so bad right now I'm too scared to ask if Jace can start staying the night every so often.....yeah we are up to that stage well kind of, I'm not ready to have sex with him yet so I'm still a virgin but some how I think not for long.

Ok time to bite the bullet so to speak, Jace just finished texting me and he thinks dad will be cool with him staying here, wish me luck..........Well that couldn't have gone better Dad said as long as Jace sleeps in the spare room then he hasn't got a problem with Jace staying, Jace said that's fine he respects that. So Jace is going to be staying the night tonight, I'm kinda nervous now.

Later that night....

So Jace is now in the spare room and I'm in mine which is kinda weird but it feels right in a way. He tried to talk me into letting him come in when Dad and Shelley are asleep but I don't want to ruin Dad's trust now not after he has been so cool about me and Jace. I think Jace is getting annoyed that I won't have sex with him, I'm seriously not ready. Mika thinks I should do it cause her and Miles are but I don't know. I don't want to lose Jace but I don't want to be pressured into sex.