everything I can't say out loud

ice cream

2/9/17

i always thought of love as this everlasting bond that could never be broken.
i always thought that i knew so much about love, but it wasn't until i experienced my first heartbreak that i realized i didn't know much about it at all.
none of us really do.
loving him was pain.
meeting him was like going home for the first time after a long trip.
but somebody else was there the entire time, and suddenly my home just didn't feel like my home anymore.
it never really was.
he never really belonged to me.
he broke my heart like he was a child handling a glass vase.
but yet again, i loved him like i was a child with an ice cream cone.
i dove in too fast and i didn't care about what would happen when i finished.
i didn't think the end would come until it did and i was left with nothing.
but it wasn't until i realized that ice cream was full of trans fat and thousands of calories that i knew i was going to be okay.
ice cream can't give you anything back.
ice cream can't nurture you and take care of you like you deserve to be nurtured and taken care of.
you can enjoy ice cream for a short amount of time.
you may even reach a point where you can say you love it like i did.
but when the time comes where you ask it if it loves you back and it doesn't respond, hopefully you will find the courage to walk away.

-caroline grace ❤