random.

pain (poem)

i try not to feel
the need to heal
others because it's resulting
in me being defaulting
because i can't be healing others
when i'm kneeling in pain
no one is treating me wrong
i might act strong
but all my thoughts are making me frown
i feel like i'm drowning
i might be told i'm good
but i never really understood
how much it takes
to have faith in yourself
because i'm the one tearing myself down
i'm the one making myself frown
because i believe i'm not good enough for society
and, again, i might act strong
but sometimes plans do go wrong
and, i admit, there's a place
where i can have some space
and express my feelings
and that place is here

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just in case you guys didn't understand the ending, i meant that i can express my feelings and let out my thoughts by writing these poems and rants and posting them on Wattpad. although i've only done 2 chapters, i feel as if i can come here whenever i feel the need to write or let feelings out. i really enjoy writing poems and ranting and i hope you do too (i take pleasure in reading them as well). if you ever need to talk, i'm here. although this poem does express that society is getting to me, i am working on boosting my confidence and loving myself more. i hope this poem really spoke to you and keep in mind that i'm always here if you need to rant or just talk.

happy reading!!

-k👩🏽‍💻