Promise You Won't Forget

What Will Become Of Us?

"I'd rather talk to Leana and Elisa."

Those words. Were you serious? Did I hear right? Your words kept me frozen. As I just stared at the screen. It hurt, hearing them. And I don't know, something in my mind just clicked at those cursed words.

Soon it was a weird conversation turning to a small serious argument, I don't know why I didn't stop those words from leaving my mouth. I mean you could've been kidding, but I couldn't tell considering anger filled your voice since you couldn't go with me, Liam, Vian, and my bro to my house. We just argued. You called me each time again and again I answered then hung up.. Why did I do that? Why didn't I just answer, stay, and chat with you?

I told you, "Why don't you talk to the people you actually want to talk to?"
You said they weren't on, I told you unblock one of them, then talk to her. You said nah. I asked you "Didn't you want to talk to her? I mean you would rather talk to her than me. And so you disregarded her and said "not her" so I said "What about the other one? Don't you talk to her?" You said not her either. But I don't know why I didn't stop, I just got overly angry. I didn't know what you were thinking but soon enough it was over. And we just stopped talking.

It was two days after that incident, Tuesday. I gathered the courage and told you "sup and sorry" over LINE. I told my friends about it, they said that I should wait till you texts me, but I knew you would never do that. But I took back my sorry by saying "nevermind, you don't deserve that sorry" you never saw it yet till the next day. You told me "plz don't txt me" and I was okay with that. I understood you were still mad at me, and that's okay. I hoped and wished every night that you and I would go back to being how we used to.

Making lame jokes, listening to eachother, laughing together, arguing playfully over tiny things knowing everything we each said was a joke, video chatting in the morning and late at night. Just everything, I wished it was all back. I admit I truly do miss you, I know I may be nothing to you but you hold a very special place in my heart.

I understood that time as you texted me to not text you that you need space. I hung out with Elisa and her brother, Matthew on Wednesday. Without my knowing as I waited for them Elisa texted you asking if you wanted to hang out. She knew that you wouldn't really talk to her, but she tried helping me out. I was grateful to have her as a friend. I told her "Why Elisa! Why'd you text him! You know thing a between me and him are not great!"

She looked at me, she told me "you guys should talk it over!" I looked at her, I knew she was right but I also knew you would say no.

And of course I'm right. "He said no.." She looked at me sadly. I looked back at her smiling kind of. Trying to hide my feelings of pain. "That's okay, I saw that coming.."

I forgot Matthew was there, he asked me what happened. I told him a brief explanation. I knew he wouldn't tell anyone.

So, we walked to the NEX, and passed by your house. I didn't look behind me as we passed, it hurt trying not to look to see if you were there. At the NEX, the three of us ate and just chatted. As I ordered Taco Bell for me and Matthew, Elisa got Popeyes. I was happy being with them, and then soon in a few minutes we face timed Alyssa and Jerome. It was truly pleasuring to see them, what was even better was that I got a smiley face on my taco!

Throughout the whole week it was enjoyable and I got my mind off things that made me sad, but I still thought of you time to time.