Promise You Won't Forget

What to do..

It was just a regular, boring Monday. Same old, same old. Still missing you as usual but I try not to show it. I think I failed, cuz I feel like people could totally see through me today and saw that I was sad. But I don't know, I'll ask other people later.

Me and my friends having regular conversations, during PE we all talked about wattpad and as we did jump rope. Two of my friends talked about it with me asking if I was okay and I asked about what they thought. One of them thinks that your being a jerk and that you should just accept my apology, the other one wants to hit you. They brightened my day kinda, it would've been great if you didn't keep popping into my mind, thanks..

How are you taking this situation is what I'm really wondering.. Whenever people ask about me do you say that we are okay? Do you even care about this at all? Do you actually tell them what's going on? I'll never know cuz I don't want to be mean and ask you. I also can't talk to you cuz I don't want to be blocked so yeah.. It still makes me sad thinking about that. But I'll just have to get used to it and accept you don't want to talk me right now or forever, I mean I don't even know if you hate me or not. It's most likely you do.

When people talk about you or ask me stuff even if they know about my situation, I say positive things about you. To me you're still my best friend, despite what's happened you will always be my best friend.

Me and Elisa walked passed your house at least twice today, did you see us? What was funny about it was that I would always make up a situation in my head of you coming to me and saying sorry. The way I imagined it was that as we pass by your house when I don't see you, you would run out and run to embrace me in a right hug and whisper "I'm sorry.." And I would just stand there startled and filled with happiness. But I know that would never happen, being the stubborn and shy one you are. But that's okay, I know we will become friends again just takes time I guess. What on earth are you thinking about? I bet you have been avoiding this situation as much as you can, maybe that's why you tell me not to talk to you.. I don't know.

Have you been chatting with Leana recently? You guys must have been getting close, no? Me and Leana haven't chatted as much as we used to recently. I wonder why.. Maybe it's cuz of this situation, but that's okay cuz I know me and her will talk like how we used to again.

Hope your having a great time so far, I miss you. See you soon.