Promise You Won't Forget

Things are starting to looking up

It's still been a while and still nothing from you. I try everyday to believe that you will be by my side again. It's hard because I feel like you hate me. Even if people say you don't and I believe them. It's just my spirit and mind doubts itself and says over and over "he hates you, and you know it!"

Wow what's wrong with me, you said you would never hate me. But you know feelings change.

I keep forgetting that she reads this story as well so when she kept saying sorry yesterday I just didn't know what to do. I had to have help from at least 4 people that time. I'm not used to people saying sorry to me unless it's just for play because normally I'm the one who says sorry for everything. And it's either they forgive me or reject it and who knows what happens to my future with them.

When she messaged me on Instagram there was a LOONG message, I think it was the longest message she has ever sent. It was filled with sorrys, and how she now noticed how I've felt with everything, and all that. It really did look sincere. So I accepted it. I sent her an even longer message back. So it's okay. She promised to be truthful to me, to not do what she did before. And I'm looking forward to that, I'm glad I brought that change to her.

In truth, I really don't know what to write right now. Because right now. There is actually nothing bad going on. Other than you, but you know. It's like after Leana realized everything, it's just like things are finally going the right way. The only thing now is you.

I hope you do realize the pain that you have caused me. I wonder if I caused you any pain. Most likely no but I don't have control in what you think. But I do hope that someday you apologize. Because it isn't just at my fault in this thing. It is also yours, we both said harsh things. It's all now depending on forgiveness.

I know that if we ever become friends again that it won't be like how we were back in the old days. Maybe it will be better, or get worse. We will never know.

I really am an idiot for thinking you will apologize. I mean you have never done it before. Unless you know, we are kidding around. But that was ages ago, now I don't even know what you are thinking. It's as if I don't know you anymore.

I just hope, please that soon enough the time will come.

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To her

I'm glad you finally understand how I've felt. It really does make me feel better, it gives me courage. Gives me hope that people who don't normally apologize will apologize to people or things they care about. You helped me with hoping and wishing. I don't mean to be offensive when I said that ^^ it's just you don't always say sorry as often as I do.

I hope that this can help us with our friendship. Help us get better, keeping a stronger bond. I don't know what else to say because I poured my heart and soul into the message I sent you.

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Again I'm sorry this chapter isn't as interesting as my normal chapters. Please forgive me. I'm still going through a tough time. But right now I'm happy. I would like to stay like this for a while. I just hope that better things will come.