Having Second Thoughts

High School Part One - Chapter One

The alarm goes off promptly at 6:15am, Kylee sits up in her bed and turns the alarm off wiping the drool off her face. She runs her fingers through her curly red hair and hops out of bed. "Today will be a good day as long as I stay positive."

But what if it isn't a great day? What happens if you end up with no friends or nowhere to sit at lunch. You will have to sit on the floor by the trash cans. Ron awakens in her mind, right on schedule. Kylee gets dressed, first day means first impressions so she has to look her best. She picks out her favorite black skirt, dark green shirt, and black boots. Kylee puts on her choker and glances at the mirror, waiting for Ron to comment. And sure enough he has something to say.

You can't wear that shirt, it's not pretty enough. You look fat in that skirt, Kylee. Try wearing a sweatshirt and sweatpants, that's more ya know...you. Kylee tries to ignore this comment, she walks out her bedroom door to go eat breakfast. She gets out the usual, milk and cereal. You can't go wrong with eating Captian Crunch. Kylee no! What are you doing? No eating any food, you'll gain weight. You are already fat enough, try to be skinnier. Kylee pours less cereal into the bowl than she normally does, and starts eating...slowly. She takes three scoops and throws the rest away. Good girl Kylee, now go brush those teeth and leave to go to school. And she does exactly that, brushes her teeth then leaves to go to school.

She waits on the curb to wait for the bus. "Okay, positive." She takes a deep breath in and out. Remember Kylee, you have to sit by someone. Someone who can tolerate you, you slob. I told you to put on something else, what you are wearing is so ugly Kylee. Sometimes I think you can't hear me. Kylee doesn't want to hear him, but she does. All day every day. Still waiting for the bus Kylee pops her earbuds into her ears and plays some music. She sings along in her head, this is the only time she can fully escape from Ron. The bus finally pulls up and Kylee nervously steps on. Good luck my dear. She walks down the isle of the bus, either the people look sketchy or they are already sitting by someone. So she decides to sit in the very front by herself, she plops her backpack at her feet and stares out the window. A minute later she gets a text from her mother, who is currently at work, saying "Have an amazing day at school today sweetie! Don't let Ron get you down, if you need to talk about anything I'm here. I love you." Kylee stares at her phone for a while, her mother never really talks to her so this is surprising. Ya know, she doesn't actually want to help you. From this moment on, Kylee knew it would be a long bus ride.

Ten minutes later, a boy comes onto the bus. He looks nervous, almost frantic, he looks around to see where to sit. "E-Excuse me? Can I sit next to you?"

Kylee looks up at the boy and takes out her earbuds and smiles. "Sure." The boy sat down, at first it was silent but the boy managed to make small talk.

"So, um, what's your name?" The boy asks quietly while squirming his arms.

"My name is Kylee, what's yours?" Man oh man Kylee, if you screw this up. Kylee strokes her hair out of nervous habit then wiggles her toes.

"I-I'm Mark," he looks nervous, like really nervous. He is wearing a blue sweatshirt, he sinks his arms into the sleeves.

"Hey, it's okay to be nervous. First day jitters?" Kylee tries to assure him, but she is nervous too.

"Yeah, scary stuff," he chuckles "I'm not really a social person." He slowly pulls his sleeves up, starting to feel comfortable talking to Kylee.

Hey look, another anti-social. You guys will be amazing friends, as long as you don't forget how to talk to each other. "I'm not a social person either, I was so nervous even stepping onto the bus."