Having Second Thoughts

Chapter Three

They finally arrive at the therapists office, Kylee unbuckles her seatbelt and gets out of the car. They both start walking towards the entrance.

Wow, here again. You do know that this never helps right? I just keep coming back, stronger.

"Yeah and more annoying." Kylee whispers.

"What? Did you say something." Her mom asks looking around for the suspect.

"Yeah, I was responding to Ron." She says shamefully.

Her mom sighs, "Good thing we are here now." They continue on their way to the entrance, Kylee opens the door and steps in.

Yay we get to see Dr. Thomas again, what is it like the second time this week? All because of me...I think that deserves a medal.

Kylee grabs her head again, "Hello Dr. Thomas, again."

"Hello Kylee, hi Mrs. Marshall. The usual?"

"Yes, but it's getting worse." Her mom answers for her.

"What has he been saying." The doctor asks.

"He tells me that I should eat less, wear different clothes, he says I'm ugly, fat and best of all, useless." She says while continuing to grab her head.

"Why are you grabbing your head?"

"I want him to stop. I don't know how to make him stop."

"Does the music still help?" He crosses his legs and puts his hands on his knees.

"Yes, but now that I'm at school--" shut up you freak, run away. You don't deserve to live around these lovely people. They don't deserve you. Die already.

"Kylee? Kylee, are you okay?" He snaps his fingers in front of her face.

She jumps, "What, What just happened."

"I don't know, you were in the middle of talking then you froze. Did Ron talk to you just now?"

"Yes," she takes a breath "he told me to run away. H-he told me to hurry up and die."

He sat there stunned, not knowing what else to ask her. "Mrs. Marshall can we talk in private please." She nods in agreement and they leave the room.

They are planning to get rid of you, send you away to an institution.

"Ron, stop okay. Leave me alone they would never do that to me." She whispers.

I can't leave, unless...

"Unless what?"

Unless you die. If you die, so do I. But I know you won't, you've tried but you won't.

"You're right, I have tried to. But maybe you shouldn't doubt me, maybe i have a plan."

Except you don't, I know what you are thinking, seeing, doing, all day everyday.

The doctor and her mom return, "So?" Kylee asks.

"Kylee, you are going to stay in a...place for a bit. To see how you react to Ron away from the outside world."

Told you, idiot. How could you not see this coming.

"Wow, love you too mom." Kylee turns bitter, she now tries to accept her fate. She's officially insane in the brain, that she will never have a normal life, and she never has.

"It's for your own good sweetie." Her mom gets teary eyed and looks away from her daughter.

"Wow, you can't even look at me! Am I that far gone? Am I that insane that you have to get--"

Yes, you are that far gone.

"I didn't ask for your opinion Ron! Leave my head, leave it. Go away!" She starts screaming and covering her ears again. Suddenly she goes silent. She falls to the floor with no noise made. Ron won't speak. Nor will she. The doctor and her mom rush to help her. "Nobody can help me," she whispers softly "just kill me already."

"Honey, I will not kill you! We will not kill you! We love you, you need to learn that." Her mom starts crying. Kylee is still laying helplessly on the floor.

"Mom, please. If you love me, kill me. Jab me in the heart I don't care, just kill me." She says softly again, Kylee sounds weak and tired. She then passes out on the floor.