{Avenged} My Nightmare {Sevenfold}

{Avenged} My Nightmare {Sevenfold} [20]

"So Is Joe here?"

"No, dear he wants to visit you but he's hoping to miss all the talk about baby clothes and furniture and well anything to do with shopping." She laughed as she hugged me.

I smiled and hugged her back.

"Did you want to discuss something with him?"

"Uh no," I blushed a little.

"Ah...girl talk," she winked at me. "So what is on your mind?"

"Uh..." My stomach choose that moment to growl. I blushed darker and she laughed guiding me to the kitchen where she had  lunch laid out. We quietly filled our plates and after a few bites I worked up the courage to ask her what I was dying to know.

"So...when you were pregnant with Jimmy did your apetite increase?"

It wasn't exactly what I wanted to ask but I had to admit I was kind of embarrassed to discuss what had happened this morning.

"Well yes and remember you're eating for one more than I did so it's going to be a little more still. You're eating for three now. Of course your other appetites will increase as well."

"Other...?"

"Sleep, emotional support, sexual...."

I could feel my cheeks on fire now. I could imagine I was tomato red.

"Honey normally I wouldn't pry but with your mother clear across the country and because I consider you my daughter I want you to know that you can talk to me about anything."

"You consider me your daughter?" I bit my lip. Could I really bring it up after that?

"I know that you and Jimmy never married but to me you are still and will always be my daughter. Even after you do eventually marry."

"Marry?" I said my eyes wide open now. My heart was beating quickly now in my chest like a hummingbird's wings.

"Oh Honey, I have no illusions. You are young with your whole life ahead of you. You will fall in love again and marry."

"But...I can't."

She smiled at me. "You can and you will honey. Jimmy wouldn't want you to be unhappy and one of these days you are gonna find a man who can not only make you smile and laugh but will make you feel safe and he'll also make you feel those same feelings Jimmy used to."

I blushed, remembering that I had felt safe in Matt's arms this morning. But was that because it was Matt holding me or because I had thought he was Jimmy?

"Is there someone like that now?"

"I don't know. Everything is just so confusing right now and it's like I don't even know my own body anymore. I mean Zacky touched my arm and it was like...." I trailed off not knowing how to explain it. 

"Sweetie it's perfectly normal for you to experience those cravings. It's a normal part of pregnancy. You're hormones are going to be off the chart and not just the ones that control your sensual side. All of them. You are going to be very emotional during times as well."

I bit my lip.

"Is there a reason you were crying this morning?"

My eyes snapped up to hers.

"How did you know?"

"You are gifted with your makeup skills sweetie but a mother, and a woman can always tell when the puffiness is coming from tears and when it's from lack of sleep."

I pushed my food around on my plate for a minute.

"I had a dream last night. Except it wasn't a dream I don't think."