i haven't talked to Milo, and i don't want to anytime soon. i sat by the lake, when suddenly i heard the sound of footsteps against grass and i looked to my side to see Ted, fiddling with his hands.
"hi Alexandra, Milo is a jerk i just wanted to let you know i'm on your side" he said.
i didn't respond, and threw a pebble into the water and watched as it hopped across the water before sinking to the bottom.
"are you crying?" asked Ted.
"i'm not crying" i replied, plainly.
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"oh" he shrugged.
i closed my eyes and held my cigarette shakily towards my face. i felt small tears start to slip out my eyes and i tried to quickly blink them away.
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"don't cry" he pleaded.
"i-i'm sorry i have to go" i stuttered, dropping my cigarette in the water and running back towards the house.
as i ran through the front door i heard the sound of... sniffling? from the basement. i tip-toed down the wooden seats to see Milo. crying. i felt tears streaming down my face. he looked up and rubbed his swollen eyes.
i knelt down beside him, blinking through teary eyes.
"i'm sorry Alexandra. i would do anything for you, even burn in hell for a thousand years" Milo cried.
"hit me. i want to feel something" i begged.
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he frowned at me.
"hit me!" i screamed.
"i don't want to hit you, Alexandra i love you" Milo cried.
"i love you too Milo. but every time i try not to, you break me. you destroy me" i rasped.
Milo went silent.
"let's just destroy ourselves until we forget" i whispered, leaning closer to him.
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"as long as i'm with you" Milo smiled.
i leaned in close to him until his cold breath was crawling against my bare neck. i smashed my lips roughly against his.
