11/16/14
BurCon
3:20 Jared Padalecki & Jensen Ackles (appearances by Mark Sheppard & Hailee Padalecki)
"Your... struggle... how is that impacting your relationships with the rest of your family?" the fan asks.
"Depends on how you use the term 'family," Hailee says after a pause.
"How do you define family?" the fan counters.
"My definition of family is the people that choose to love me. Different people have different definitions," Hailee answers.
"I guess I meant the people in your house. The people you live with," the fan admits.
Hailee nods, "By that definition, Uncle Jensen, Aunt Danneel, and JJ would be included. Because family doesn't end in blood, nor does it end in law. As far as I care, legal papers just mean that no one can take them away."
Hailee reaches in her pocket and pulls out an army dog tag with a broken chain, and wraps it around her fingers.
"My mom... is really worried about me. I can see it, every time she looks at me. I get that look a lot, actually... especially from the people that I've just walked up to and said 'I want to die.' And honestly... it's for that reason that I kinda avoid my mom. I just... I feel bad about worrying people with my problems when they've got their own problems to worry about. Mine... being a problem that can't actually be solved until that wonderful day I get to go Home. That wonderful day that is so far away. So I don't want to worry people about something that they can't do anything to fix. That make sense?"
"My dad..." Hailee continues, "He's kinda my vent. I tell him pretty much everything. Like that dream I had last weekend... and how much it hurt to wake up from. I gotta say, the subconscious is a cruel thing. Though I'd give a lot to have a dream like that again, no matter how hard it is to wake up from. Anyway... yeah. My dad is helping me a lot with this. Uncle Jensen and Aunt Danneel... I used to joke around with them a lot. Now not so much, because I just... Happiness isn't very easy anymore. I just feel like every morning I wake up another boulder is dropped on me. I want it to end, but I can't find a way out. I'm drowning in this brokenness."
Jared wraps an arm around Hailee's shoulders and kisses the top of her head.
"My little brothers, Tom and Shep... and JJ, Uncle Jensen and Aunt Danneel's daughter... They're so little. I... I don't let them see anything. I want to protect them. I want them to have as good of a chance as possible at a happy life."
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It's Okay to Cry
Fanfiction(SPN Cast) Jared Padalecki's thirteen-year-old daughter begins to struggle with mental health, and he and the rest of the cast join to support her.
