Tiny Little Needles

Chapter 7

Alyssa's POV

My lips felt tingly after that kiss. And I knew my cheeks were red as possible, so when I looked into his eyes again, my face got even hotter with a brighter blush.

"Fuck. I'm sorry," Alex turned away from me, shaking his head as his fringe fell into his face.

"U-uh, its ah, God, I dunno. O-okay?" I stuttered out and covered my face in my hands.

"But, um. Did it feel good?" He asked nervously, playing with his left lip ring.

I hesitated. Yes it felt good, but did I want to admit it? I mean, we're just friends, I shouldn't be kissing him and then telling him I liked it. This is just supposed to be a friendship. Nothing more. But what would happen if I did say yes? Would he try to kiss me again or would he just shrug it off? What if I said no? Would I hurt his feelings? I was caught between the two options. I couldn't decide which one to chose. So I stuck with the only answer I had:

"I dunno..." I told him truthfully, playing with a strand of my hair.

"Well, what if we tried again. How 'bout that?"

"Um. Okay." I nodded and turned towards him and rested my hand on my leg and lent inwards with my eyes closed and waited for his lips to touch mine. Once I felt his, my stomach twirled again. As if I was on some kind of roller coaster with crazy twists and turns and large loop de loops. Every bit on contact from his lips just made that much of an effect. Seconds later, we pulled back and store into each other's eyes like they were glued to each other in an amazing stare that made me not want to look away.

"So, how'd you rate that?" He asked me lowly.

I smiled and felt my face go all hot again.

"It was good. Like, really good," I smiled and chuckled, this time actually telling him the truth.

I managed to get my eyes from his stare as Alex opened his mouth to speak again.

"So. Uh, I'm not sure if this is something I should ask," Alex started. I already knew what he was going to ask. If that kiss meant anything. I mean, sure in the heat of the moment it felt right but I still wasn't sure if it actually meant anything. Like, I've been kissed before, and I know this sounds cliché, but, that kiss was one of a kind. It wasn't only the fact that I was kissing Alex's lips that were obviously a different texture than others, but the kiss wasn't rough, it was soft and gentle. Almost as if he didn't want to hurt me.

"But, did that mean anything to you?" I knew it. I didn't plan what I was gonna say this time but I tired to understand it.

"Listen, Alex, it was actually really nice. I-I hadn't felt anything like that in a long, long time. Maybe I haven't felt anything like that at all, but I really enjoyed it. I know I did feel something, it wasn't just shivers and all that other stuff, it was something else that I don't know how to explain. But, we're just friends, like this, this might not work out- Now I'm not saying that I don't want to be in a relationship, it sounds okay, but, just, with everything that's going on with you and your mom, it's. Uh, I dunno. I might not even be able to see you some days because she's keeping you from doing anything. I'd really love to spend time with you, but I'm also worried for your safety. Like I dunno what she does to you at home, but I'm guessing it's pretty brutal sometimes. I just, I don't want to be a burden on you and make you get hurt because of me." I ranted.

Alex gave me an understanding look and sighed.

"But Ashley and Rafe are in a relationship,"

"That's different. They've been hinting at wanting to be together since forever,"