Journal

I don't understand

A person told me i acted too much like a Sadist. I looked it up, wondering what they had meant, and i wont post it online who they were but they are someone on Wattpad. 'a person who derives pleasure, especially sexual gratification, from inflicting pain or humiliation on others.' I mean, i guess if they say i act like a Sadist i guess, that's just who i am? I'm not that good with people, and i have a really short temper.. And i wont judge myself, because i have a pretty o-k Ego. I don't know they supported their case on that fact, and i guess i have nothing better to do then just accept that; Am i really that bad with people? Well shit i must be if my Sister thinks I'm a Sociopath and this one person thinks I'm a Sadist. What's with people and trying to label me with these names, seriously Take all the attention from me, and put it on TorrentRainbow who is a complete cinnamon roll-- I'm serious I'm not kidding from that. I cant help them as well as some people can. And if I'm a Sadist there's no doubt I'm unfit to help anyone at this point. I think I'm Emotionally constipated at this point from everything going on right now. And i cant write literal essays on how great someone is (N3p3taL3ijon holy fuck you're so great and that's not sarcasm; thanks for helping Rainbow when i couldn't) But anyways. That's a bit enough with this page, thanks for anyone who actually read through this depressing text if it is depressing I'm sorry I guess? I have a lot of things i need to change about myself-- god please nobody talk to me like I'm a Kindergartener. God i hate when people do that, anyone else? no? just me? okay..