Love never dies

Chapter 17: Pain

Chloe's POV:
I knew why Beca did what she did. I knew that we needed a break, I did something horrible. I would completely understand if she never forgave me, I don't even think I can forgive myself.

My life went on, same routine every day, I got up, showered, got dressed, ate, brushed my teeth, did my hair and makeup, went to work, went to lunch, got off work, came home, changed, ate, sat on the couch, went to sleep, and did it all over again the next day.
My life was boring without Beca by my side. Aubrey hasn't been around much, she kinda is mad at me for what I did. She saw something in Beca and I that gave her such hope, and I ruined that for her.
It's been about 3 weeks since Beca officially called this break, and it's been the worst. Sometimes I text her, just saying I miss her and I hope her life is going good, and of course I get no response which is okay, I understand, but it helps me cope to just text her.
I don't really know how to do life without Beca, every time I was lost, sad, mad, didn't know how to do something Beca was always right there to help me out, and not having that sucks, I have no one, Aubrey helps sometimes, but it's so half assed because she's mad at me.
I need to make friends. I need that one person who I can trust, someone who's gonna help me when I'm crying over Beca, someone who understands the things I do and why I do them.
The next morning I had a day off, so I thought I'd actually go sight seeing here in Seattle since I haven't done much but work.
I woke up in so much pain. It really hit me that I'm not with Beca. What have I done.
I brushed it off the best I could, it's time to go sight seeing.
First I walked in downtown Seattle, it's beautiful, so many cute little shops, so many cute restaurants, perfect for dates and people in love, gosh, everything comes back to Beca, I love her so much, but I need to respect that she wants this break.
I wasn't paying much attention to anything, my thoughts were all jumbled, I just walked with my head held low, I bumped into somebody.
"I'm so sorry, I'm such a ditz" Chloe said apologetically
"You're fine. Both our faults, I wasn't watching where I was going" the girl said
"Ha. Yeah." Chloe said not knowing what to say
Chloe walked away, continuing her walk, when all of the sudden she heard footsteps running up behind her.
"Hey. You dropped your phone. I'm sure you're gonna want that" the girl said trying to catch her breath
"Oh my gosh yeah, thanks" Chloe said smiling
"Some girl named Beca called and I answered so I could ask who's phone this was, then I realized it was yours, I seen your picture on the lock screen" the girl said
"Wait. What? You answered my phone" Chloe said shocked
"Yeah. I'm sorry dude. Just wanted to return the phone to its owner, take a chill pill, how about a "thank you Alison""
"Yup. Thanks Allison" Chloe said sarcastically
Chloe walked home, trying to call Beca back, it just went to voicemail. She knew Beca was gonna be mad, how many times could she mess up, even though this time wasn't even her fault.

Later that evening Chloe went to go take a bath, she lit candles, had lavender scented bubbles, turned on her Spotify and relaxed. When her phone ran and it was from a random number, she answered in hopes that it was Beca.

"Hello" Chloe said softly

"Hey babycakes, its Allison, I put your number in my phone! Surprise" Allison said

"Uhm. What can I help you with"

"Nothing, just wanted to see if you wanted to grab something to eat in about an hour"

"Uhm. I guess. I have nothing better to do"

Chloe hung up and got out of the bath, she threw on some jeans and a hoodie, not caring what she looked like because it wasn't a date, Chloe isn't gonna date anyone until she knows that Beca and her are done for good, which she's hoping isn't gonna be the case.
She through on some nikes, her hair up in a messy bun and walked out of the house.

She arrived at the restaurant, finding Allison sitting at a table wearing some really nice clothes. Chloe was confused because she didn't remember agreeing to a date, she started to stress.
She sat down and asked Allison why she was dressed so fancy.
"Uhm. I'm having dinner with a really attractive person, so why wouldn't I dress nice?" Allison said as if Chloe asked a dumb question "but I see you don't think highly of me, judging you wore a hoodie and jeans"

"I don't think anything of you, I don't even know you" Chloe said annoyed

"Isn't that the point of dates"

"But this isn't a date" Chloe said sternly

"But it could be" Allison said reaching for Chloe's hand

"But it can't, I think I'm gonna go" Chloe said as she began to get up.

"Why not. You at least owe me that much" Allison said sadly

"Because. I'm in love with someone else" Chloe said, tears starting to form

"Well. Where is he"

"She. Where is she, and she's in L.A, I did something stupid that I'm not gonna tell you because, well, I don't know you, but I love this girl and I'm gonna do everything to get her back, she's my heart, she's the reason I breathe, she's the reason I'm living, she's the reason for everything, and I messed up, and now it's a waiting game to see if she's gonna take me back, and I'm not doing anything to fuck this up, because I can't lose her for good, if that happens I'll go crazy and probably curl up and die" Chloe said wiping the tears from her face.

"Wow. That's heavy" Allison was at a loss for words

"Yeah. I'm gonna go. I'm so so sorry, but I need to get my love back" Chloe said storming out of the restaurant.

"Hey Beca, did you get all of that" Allison turning to the booth behind her revealing Beca.

"Yeah. I did"

A/N:
Ahhhhhhh snap! Things are getting good! Stay tuned, I would love feedback, so comment and vote!