Love never dies

Chapter 19: Not ready

Chloe's POV:
Babe. She called me babe. This girl, she's messing with my heart. First the kiss then she calls me babe. I'm going insane. I need her. I crave her touch. Her lips, everything. I need to stop thinking about Beca and just be friends, like she asked, just friends.
She wants me to earn my trust back. How the hell am I gonna do that? I'm not good at grand surprises, do I just show her I love her everyday until she sees she can trust me again? Do I plan some extravagant surprise? I'm so lost. I decided to text Beca, see how long she planned on staying!

Chloe: 5:17pm
Hey. Uhm. Just wanted to see how long you are in town for?

Beca: 5:20pm
I leave in two days why?

Chloe: 5:23pm
Just wanted to see if you maybe wanted to hang out tomorrow? You know, as friends?

Beca: 5:27pm
Yeah. I'd love too. I have some press to do tomorrow, so if you wanna follow me around and hang out, by all means, tag along!

Chloe: 5:30pm
Awesome. I'll see you tomorrow!

Alright I need a game plan. I cant just go into tomorrow with no game plan. We are friends, we are just friends, so that means, no touching, no kissing, no nothing. How the hell do friends hang out? Aubrey has been my best friend since high school and we hug and give each other little pecs here and there when we say hello and goodbye, and when i met beca we never really went through the friends phase, we just went straight to talking and going on dates and eventually dating, and we were always so touchy with one another, UGHHHHHHHHHH. I need to call Aubrey.

"Hey chlo whats up" Aubrey said as she answered the phone

"I need some best friend advice, i am freaking out big time about this whole beca and i being friends"  I knew i sounded scared and nervous but i am so confused

"Chlo. Just be yourself, minus all the touching, you have to act like nothing happened, but with caution. You need to make sure beca knows that you're trying to gain her trust back, and that you really want her and only her, you need to show her that what you did was a mistake."

"I'm just afraid I won't be able to keep my hands off her, i'm so sexually frustrated and she's hot and ugh. Aubs. I'm so in love, I miss her so much. Thank you for talking to me, I know you're very busy, I love you more than you'll ever know" I hung up and started to make myself dinner.

After I finished eating I cleaned up, I was gonna watch a movie but I needed to do some serious grooming! I haven't shaved my legs in weeks, and lord knows I haven't been grooming the garden.

I was in the shower for what felt like hours, when I got out I realized I had 3 missed calls from beca, I started to worry, so I called her back.

"Beca is everything okay" I was afraid to ask the question.

"yeah. everything is fine, it's just, I don't think i'm ready to face you yet" beca's voice sounded broken

"what do you mean beca, you just saw me a couple hours ago and you kissed me, remember?" I was so hurt and confused.

"Chloe. I know"

"Beca. At least do dinner with me, Please" I pleaded

"Chloe. I'm not ready" Beca hung up

Beca's POV:

I'm so stupid. I panicked. I didn't know how to feel. I was scared. I want to see Chloe but I honestly don't think i'm ready. I know that if i were to hang out with her i'd break and take her back, and I know I need to keep her on her toes, I need her to know that what she did really sucked and it left me broken, and I knew that when we hung out i'd open back up and take her back. I had to call her back and let her know that.

"Chloe. Please don't talk, just listen. It's not that I didn't wanna see you, it's that I can't, and the reason for that is because, you broke me, you broke me in ways I don't think you'll be able to understand. I love you with all my heart and I know that me and you will end up together, just right now, I need to heal, and I can't heal while i'm around you, ugh. you have such a hold on my heart that nobody else has, you were and still are the only person who is able to get me to open up, you are the reason for all my smiles, you are the reason for my heartbreak, you are the reason for a lot of things in my life, the good and the bad, and this won't take a long time, right now I need to go back to L.A and I need to go back to work, and get my mind off things, and once everything falls into place I will buy you a plan ticket and you and I will meet and things will be perfect." I paused because I had to force myself from crying " Just know I love you more than anything, and soon babe, soon, things will be normal. You can talk now if you wanna, I mean I understand if you can't wait for me, after all i am asking a ton with the whole waiting game, but i hope you understand" I finally stopped talking, we had a brief moment of silence before Chloe began to speak

"Becs, I love you so much, and I do understand, I will wait for you, however long it may be, I will wait, you are the best thing to happen to me, and like I said, I am not giving up on you without a fight. Now you go back to L.A and you get back to work and you do what I know you are capable of doing, make everyone proud, and when you are ready I will be here waiting for that plane ticket! I love you so much, I just need you to understand that, I need you to know that what I did was wrong, and I am gonna do everything to make sure you know that you are the only one for me, now get out of here Beca Mitchell and make me proud" Chloe hung up.

It felt amazing that she was so supportive. I know she is hurting by this, hell i'm hurting because of this, but it needs to happen, she is the love of my life, but if I just jumped into this without fully trusting her and fully finding myself it wouldn't have worked out. This is the best for us if we want a long and happy life together.

After our talk I started packing my bags, booked a flight and I was on my way to L.A, back to work, back to life, and eventually back to Chloe!