The Monster Inside Me

Chapter 7: Fucking Hell

I opened my eye weakly, my head was pounding and I couldn't see anything but black.
"Jayn...?" I mumbled hoarsely.
"Seker!" Suddenly I heard Jayn, his scent enveloping me... My vision cleared, and I was staring up at him.
"Fucking hell... You're covered in blood..." He mumbled weakly, then started rubbing my face with a rag. After a while, he tried to move my hair out of the way so he could rub my left cheek. I quickly put my hands over my face.
"No..." I mumbled weakly.
"Why not?"
"Because..."
"Let me wash off your face, Seker. We can't go home until I do." Jayn grumbled.
I sighed and slowly lowered my hands," Just don't move my eyepatch..."
"Fine, fine." He said softly.
"Wait, what happened to those FBI agents?" I asked softly.
"They choked you, and you seemed to pass out... But you woke up and killed all three of them... You were acting really weird..." Jayn murmured weakly,"I guess you don't remember... You passed out again once you are them..."
"Oh... So that wasn't a dream..." I mumbled. I remembered now that he told me. I had been so furious that I had lost myself and killed them, and passed out from exhaustion afterwards.
"Yeah... " Jayn murmured softly then continued to wash my face. He pulled up my hair again, and I closed my eye. Then I felt my eyepatch get pulled off my face. I quickly shot my hands over my ruined eye, but not before Jayn gasped-- his eyes HUGE.
"S-Seker! Did your dad do that?!" He exclaimed, looking highly upset.
I nodded weakly, looking down in shame. Jayn carefully moved my hands and looked at my eye, covered in scars and was sewn shut sloppily.
Then he leaned down and gingerly kissed my eye. I flinched away, and he murmured," My mom would always kiss my booboos..." He smiled warmly.
"My mom would never do that..." He murmured weakly.
"Really? That's awful... Look, I'll take care of you! I'll be like your mom!" Jayn said happily, smiling widely.
I stared at him weakly.
"Okay... " I said softly, watching as he gingerly kissed my forehead. Then he continued washing my face and chest.

When he finally finished, he helped me up and let me pull my eyepatch back on.
"Did it hurt?" He asked while we walked back home.
"What?"
"When your dad did that to your eye?"
"Yes. It hurt a lot... He used a knife to tear open my eye."
"That's awful..." He mumbled weakly.
"Mm..." I mumbled weakly. He reached out and took my hand, looking up at me sadly.
I felt my heart rate quicken and my stomach tightened. I swallowed thickly, pulling my hand away.

When we got home, Jayn walked inside and Summer quickly rushed up to us. She wrapped her arms around Jayn, tears running down her face.
"Jayn, my baby! Oh my baby!" She cried, hugging him tightly and stroking his hair.
I watched them in shame, swallowing thickly.
"It's okay, mom..." Jayn murmured, trying to push her away.
"I was so worried!" She cried," It's been two hours!"
"It's okay, I promise. Seker protected me." He said softly, smiling shyly at me.
Summer looked at me and said," Thank you, Seker. Thank you for protecting my baby." She was still crying, but she had a new respect for me that day.
"Of course..." I murmured in embarrassment.
"Seker, I'm sorry for doubting you. Please forgive my ignorance." Summer said, looking at me with a guilty expression.
"It's alright, I really don't mind... " I murmured softly.
"Mom, Seker got pretty beat up..."

---6 months later--
Jealousy is an annoying emotion.

Jayn had started dating a douche named Kris, who I despise with all of my heart. I sat on Jayn's bed, with him sitting right in front of me.
He was rambling on and on about Kris, and how much he loved him.
I listened, but only for Jayn's wellbeing.
"Kris is soooo perfect! His hair is so silky, his eyes sparkle like the sun..."
I could feel my patience wearing down quickly.
"Jayn, you've said the same statement 4 times in the past 5 minutes." I mumbled, trying to kept the annoyance out of my voice. But I failed.
Jayn sulked quietly," Seker... I can't help that I love him so much!"
"What happened to the times when you would talk about school? Please, anything but Kris."
"Fine. " Jayn grumbled," How was your day?"
"Boring. " I murmured, looking down at my hands.
"That's what I thought." Jayn snapped, getting off the bed and storming out of the room.
I sighed weakly and laid back, my head dangling off the bed.
"Why can't I just be happy for Jayn? Instead I'm jealous..." I grumbled weakly-- not realizing Jayn had came back and was standing in the doorway.
"You're jealous?" Jayn asked, frowning. I quickly sat up and shook my head," Of course not!"
"Then what did you say?"
"Er..." I quickly glanced down, trying to come up with an excuse.
"See. " Jayn said, crossing his arms," So that's why you didn't want me talking about Kris. You could've just told me that."
"No, I couldn't have. " I mumbled.
"Yes, you could. We're best friends. You can tell me anything. "
"Then, let me say this:
Jayn, I'm jealous and Kris is a fucking douche bag that should rot in hell because he treats you unfairly. "
"Seker, I love him. "
"I don't care!" I cried, tears starting to sting the back of my eye.
Jayn glared at me.
"Why can't I be happy, Seker?! Why do I have to suffer because your father abused you?!"
Frustration made me start crying.
His voice continuously rising as he yelled at me.
"It's not my fault that you picked me up off the streets!"
"I should've just left you!"
Tears ran down my face, hot and sticky as I stood up and went to walk out of the room.
He grabbed my arm and said, softly," I'm sorry... I-I didn't mean that..."
I yanked my arm away and stormed out of the room, sloppily wiping away my tears as I started out the front door. Summer was watching me with wide eyes, having heard Jayn and me fighting.
"Seker? Do you want me to say something to Jayn?" She asked softly. Ever since I saved Jayn, she had started accepting me more like a son.
"No. I'm fine. " I said weakly, walking out the door and closing it behind me.
I walked down the street, wiping away my tears weakly as I walked.
"Damn jealousy..." I mumbled weakly," Why can't I just not like Jayn...?"
I stopped, sitting on the ground and curling myself up into a tight ball.
I ended up crying myself to sleep, only waking up when I heard an asshole's voice.
"Oh look, it's Seker Phoa, the guy who lives with my boyfriend. Maybe I should kick his ass?" Kris said, laughing along with his friends. I sat up, already frustrated in angry, so I started crying again.
"Aw, is Seker going to go cry to his Mommy? Oh wait, he can't! Because they'll add a couple new scars and bruises to his hideous face!" Kris laughed along with his friends.
I scowled and stood up, wiping away my tears and pulling my claws out of my back pocket-- I didn't leave anywhere without them since those FBI people attacked.
I slid it on, growling softly and snarling.
"Aw, I'm so scared of the little baby~" Kris teased-- that was until I sliced his stomach open slightly.
I knew Jayn would be pissed if I hurt Kris too badly, so I left just a mediocre scratch.
Kris' eyes flared with anger as he looked at me-- grabbing a handful of my hair and yanking me up. He was a good foot taller than me, but only because I had just started growing again once I was able to eat more.
I growled and hissed, scowling and pulling my top lip to reveal my teeth.
"So scary~" Kris teased before throwing me to the ground. I hissed in pain, as my wrist popped loudly.
"Oh no~ I seemed to have broken--" I shot at him before he could finish the sentence, spitting with rage. I pinned him down, about to slash open his face before I heard Jayn cry," SEKER NO!"
I was shaking from rage, but I got off of Kris, turning around to look at Jayn weakly. Then, I was lifted off the ground again by my hair.
Kris smirked," Thank you, babe~" Then he ripped off my eyepatch, all of the boys laughing at me except for Jayn-- who was frozen in fear.
"He's even uglier without the eyepatch!" One of the boys called.
"Tell me about it! How about we see how skinny he is next?"
They ripped off my shirt, while I was helpless to do anything.
My ribcage still poked out from my skin, my stomach hollow looking and the bandage across my stomach was bloody.
My father was right. I truly did look like a monster.
All the boys pointed and laughed as I cried, pulling off the bandage and making jokes about it as well.
I closed my eye, praying Kris would drop me and leave me alone.
"K-Kris... Stop..." Jayn's voice was soft.
"What was that, babe?"
"Stop... Don't do that to Seker..."
"Why not? He's an ugly son of a bitch."
"Because he's my friend."
"So? He probably raped you then tricked you into saying that."
"Seker would never!"
"Yeah, that's what they all say." Kris smirked and dropped me, this time a fiery pain shot through my wrist. I laid there limply.
"Come on, babe. I'll protect you from this monster." Kris purred slyly, taking a step closer to Jayn and holding out a hand.
"N-Not until you apologize."
There was a loud clap and I knew exactly what had happened.
Kris had slapped Jayn.
Not my precious Jayn... I thought weakly, even if he wasn't mine.
I pulled myself halfway to my feet, before I felt Kris' shoe collide with my head and I went face first into the concrete.
Kris walked off with Jayn, who hesitantly followed.

I cried for a long time, until it got dark. Then I grabbed my eyepatch and bandage, and headed back to Jayn's place.
When I got there, Summer was waiting in the kitchen.
"Seker?" She looked at me worriedly. Luckily, my hair covered my eye and I had put my bandages back on.
"Yeah..." I mumbled weakly, sitting down at the dinner table and resting my head on it.
"Jayn went to go find you..."
"Kris found me first." I said weakly," And Jayn went with him..."
I felt myself choking up with tears again as I remembered what had happened.
"Jayn... Jayn didn't even do anything... He just watched... As they made fun of me..." I sobbed, burying my face in my arms.
"He did?" Summer sat beside me, gently stroking my hair.
"Sh..." She cooed softly," It's okay..."
"I feel like..." I cried weakly," I feel like this is all my fault..."
"It's not, sweetheart... It's Jayn's. He shouldn't have ever dated Kris in the first place. I'm going to have a talk with him tonight." Summer cooed, trying to calm me down-- but that just made it worse.
I cried harder and said," He wants to be happy with Kris... It's not my place to ruin that..."
Then, Jayn came in-- his face bloodied and bruised.
"I-I broke up with Kris... He told me he was moving back to France in a couple of months anyways... And he... He did this..." Jayn mumbled weakly-- but at the time, we didn't know Jayn would end up dating Kris again. And again. And again. Until he moved away to France.
I didn't look at him, just glanced up weakly before burying my face again. Summer must've glared at him because he realized what was happening.