The Monster Inside Me

Chapter 4: More Pain and Agony

When I woke up again, I was laying on the metal table. I slowly sat up, opening my right eye and starting to panic when I realized I couldn't open my left eye.
Then remember what happened, a few tears running down my cheek. I quickly wiped them away then looked around. Mia was asleep in the corner then I got up to wake her up. I glanced at her watch when I was waking her up.
"Mia! Mia!" I cried hoarsely," You need to go! My dad will be here any minute!"
She slowly opened her eyes then her eyes widened as she quickly scrambled away.
"I'm sorry, Seker--" She was cut off as the door opened.
My heart skipped a beat.
"Seker, I'm highly disappointed in your behavior. " My father said-- not noticing Mia yet.
"Y-Yes s-sir..." I stuttered, eyes wide.
"What did I say about stuttering?!" He snapped, making his way over to me and lifted me off the ground by my hair.
I cried out in pain, tears streaming down my face.
He dropped me, and there was a soft crunch as my arm was caught underneath me. Mia was watching in horror.
"Ugh... You're broken. I'll get you cast. Just get on the table." He growled, then walked out of the room. I nodded weakly, getting on the table while keeping my broken arm right against my chest. I slipped on the blood, my face colliding with the cold metal. I felt dizzy when I stood back up, then staggered backwards and ended up falling. Mia caught me, but it was too late. My consciousness started slipping away right as my father walked back into the room.

When I opened my eyes again, Mia was pressed against the wall in front of me-- my father's hand on her throat.
"S-Stop!" I cried, eyes wide with horror.
My father turned to look at me, rage in his eyes.
"Seker, I'm going to make you kill her. And you have to eat her, or I'll torture her until you do."
Tears started streaming down my face again.
"Please! I'll do anything! Just leave her alone!" I cried, climbing off the table and ignoring the pain in my arm as I tried to push my father away from her. But it was a futile effort. I was a young, malnourished, weak child. There was no way I would be able to move him.
He smirked, then let go of Mia.
"Anything?" He asked, then took a fistful of my hair and lifted me in the air. I kicked my feet helplessly," A-Anything..." I mumbled through gritted teeth.
"Kill her."
"No!" I cried, then he threw me-- my back cracking slightly when I hit the wall.
Mia watched helplessly, as I tried to protect her.
"Fine. Then you won't get any food for the next few weeks." My father said, walking out of the room.
I gulped then realized what was happening. I covered my mouth with my hands.
I already hadn't eaten anything in a while... Since I had already eaten that lady from before, just before the date. Tears started running down my face. My father was clever, he used my hunger against me. Soon I wouldn't be able to control myself, and then I would hurt her.

It's only been a couple of hours and I've already had to turn away from Mia. She was starting to smell really good, my mouth watering with hunger. I quickly shook my head, clutching my splintered arm to my chest again. I had bandaged it, and was being extra careful.

It's been a whole day now. Mia is asleep. I can't do anything but stare at her, drool running down my chin as I started crawling towards her. My hands were shaky with hunger, and my eye was crazed. I stopped myself, scrambling back in my corner and crying until I fell asleep. I would wake up every hour, drool dribbling down my chin as I would slowly make my way over to her. I would get a little farther each time, until she woke up when I was only inches from her face. My stomach growled loudly, my mouth parted-- ready to strike.
"Seker!" She cried, quickly scrambling away. My drool dripped and fell as I followed her, my eye half-lidded.
"Stop!" She cried loudly, running from me. I was too weak to stand, so I was just walking on my hands and knees.
"Seker! Snap out of it!" She exclaimed, banging on the door helplessly.
I caught up to her, and immediately bit down on her calf-- the muscle was tender, but it sent shivers of pleasure down my spine as I grabbed hold of her calf and started tearing chunks away. Blood covered my face. I had lost control of myself for the first time, but it definitely wouldn't be the last.
Mia cried out in pain, trying to kick me away as I tore open her leg. She finally kicked me in the face, sending me sprawling away. I went in the corner, whimpering as I watched her with my dark eye.
"Y-You!" She cried," You /are/ a monster!! Why did I think you weren't?! You're just like a wild animal!"
Then I hissed loudly at her, baring my teeth and starting to crawl towards her again. My nose was bleeding, from when she kicked me in the face, and there was Mia's blood covering my lips and chin.
My hunger would never be satisfied and she was the only thing in the room that my body could eat.
I figured my dad had been watching the whole time. It was a test to see how long I could make it before I turned on the people I cared for.
I leaped at her once I was close enough, ignoring the pain that kept shooting up my right arm-- the one that was broken.
"Mia~" I purred, my eye was crazed and I couldn't control myself anymore. "Please let me have a bite~"
"No!" She cried, struggling to wiggle out from under me. I pinned her arms down and sat on her stomach then said," Bad girl~"
I carefully placed one of her fingers in my mouth-- while she screamed and tried to pull away. I bit down, and there was a loud crunch as her bone splintered and I ripped her forefinger away from her hand.
She screamed in agony as I continued this process with her other fingers. She fainted after a while, from blood loss. I continued eating her arm, taking chunks of meat at a time. Blood was covering my face and Mia, who would never wake up again.

When I finished eating Mia, I returned to my senses and screamed.
"What have I done...? What have I done...? I'm a monster..." Tears ran down my face as my father walked into the room.
"You've finally realized that you're a monster, haven't you?" He snarled," Monsters don't cry! They are emotionless beasts that can only feed on humans!"
The tears slowly stopped.
"I'm a monster..." I mumbled softly, rocking back and forth weakly-- curled up in a tight ball with my knees against my chest. "I'm a monster... I'm a monster... I'm a monster..."
"Monsters cannot feel love or have friends. So you'll rot away here. You just killed the only person who was trying to help you. "
"I'm a monster..." I continued muttering," I'm a monster..."
"Yes, you're right. Now you understand why I've locked you in here. "
"Yes... I understand... I'm a monster... I'll hurt everyone..." I muttered weakly, my whole body was shaking furiously.
"Good boy." He said, then crouched down and tilted my chin towards him. "I'll give you some more food later. " Then he squeezed my jaw, I let out a small cry of surprise but didn't pull away from him.
"You should be numb. Like an animal. No more crying, no more whining, no more human reactions."
"Yes, sir."
"Good boy. " He stood up and walked out of the room-- locking the door.
I laid on the floor, the only thoughts crossing my mind were,' I'm a monster. I can't have feelings. I can't have friends. ' Over and over again.

He lied. He told me he would feed me. It's been a week since he's fed me.
I was huddled in a corner, my stomach growling loudly as I stared at the shoot with bloodshot eyes.
I heard something clunk down it and I immediately lunged at the object-- right as it hit the ground. I started tearing the meat apart, with my fingers and teeth. In a matter of seconds, the whole thing was gone.
"More..." I growled, clawing at the shoot hungrily. "More..."
Something else shot down the shoot. It was a human heart. I ate it quicker than I ate the other meat. My stomach lurched and I threw up, my whole body shaking.
"That was not a real heart. " I heard my father over the intercom.
I kept throwing up, not able to stop. Tears blossomed in my eye, my whole body lurching forward as the vile burned up my throat.

I finally stopped after a while, gulping madly for air. I collapsed on my side, my chest heaving and burning. I laid there until a fell asleep, the pain was slowly fading right before I fell asleep. When I woke up again, I was strapped to the metal table.

Suddenly pain shot through my neck and I hissed softly.
"Stay still." My father's deep voice came from the left side of me, so I couldn't see him. I strained my right eye to try and catch sight of the older man, but the attempt was in vain. The pain disappeared, and was replaced with a burning, pulsing feeling.
I sat up, rubbing the spot that the pain had just been in.
Adrenaline started pumping in my veins as my eye widened. My mouth started watering, I shot off the table at my father. I was starving. And suddenly I had energy coursing through me. My father easily moved out of the way, and I hit the wall with a thud.
"An adrenaline shot. It works well. You'll be a perfect weapon. " He said, looking at me with a blank, emotionless expression.
I bared my teeth, before leaping at him again. My stomach growling loudly.
Then he slapped me, and I hit the ground. I whimpered weakly then quickly scampered away.
"Bad, Seker. " He growled, before pointing over to the corner of the room. My eye quickly darted to where he was pointing, and there was a pale, cold body waiting for me. I leaped at it, shoving the fingers in my mouth first. I gulped down the meat, tearing it open as quickly as possible.