Memories of Us (a Matthew Sherrill fanfic)

Date?

When I woke up I immediately grabbed my phone and looked at the comments again, except this time they were worse.

'Ew wtf Matthew'

'Why her?'

'She needs to just kill herself #sorrynotsorry'

Oh..

I texted Matthew because I can't deal with anymore of this hate.

"To: Matthew

I'm sorry, I just can't go on this date.” I hit send and put my phone down, going into the bathroom.

I started the shower and when I was waiting for the water to get hot I looked at myself in the mirror. I can see why they said all this about me. I have small eyes, pimples, braces, and I’m just overall not very pretty. I don’t see why Matthew likes me. I don’t see why anyone compliments me. All I see is ugliness and that’s all I’ll ever see.

I stopped looking in the mirror and started to take a shower. I took about 10 minutes and when I got out I put on some light wash shorts and a blue tank top. I went to my phone to see I had 4 new messages, they were all from Matthew.

‘What? Why?’

‘You don’t like me anymore?’

‘Is it all the hate they’re giving you?’

‘If you don’t respond I’m coming over.’

The last one was sent about 10 minutes ago. I decided not to reply because I just really don’t want to talk about all the hate. It will make me even more sad. I walked into my bathroom and started blow drying my hair. I then started to put on my mascara and eyeliner when I heard the doorbell ring. I continued putting on my makeup until I heard the doorbell ring again. I forgot my aunt isn’t home.

I walked downstairs and opened the door. When I opened the door it was Matthew, and he looked like he was holding something behind his back. I immediately looked down because I looked horrible right now and I still feel really bad for ditching him, but it was the right thing to do.

“Look if you don’t like me anymore it’s okay but I wanted to let you know you’re a gorgeous girl and I’m not giving up without a fight.” He said and he took some flowers from behind his back and handed them to me. I smiled and grabbed them.

“Matthew it’s not that I don’t like you it’s just that I can’t deal with this hate. I have all these insecurities already and I came here to get rid of all the bullying. Everyone hates me, I read the comments, they want me to die, they say I’m ugly, and they’re right but it just hurts.” I said, “All the things they’re saying to me, they don’t even know me and they hate me. The other day when I was at the mall some girl called me a whore just because you said all those nice things about me. Thank you for that by the way. But the point is I still like you, I just really can’t deal with knowing everyone hates me. I’m sorry.”

I started to close the door but Matthew wouldn’t let me.

“Wait, you’re insecure? You have no need to be you’re gorgeous, you’re funny, and you’re just perfect. I promise I can make them stop, I’ll block the haters. They don’t even hate you they’re just jealous. So please just let me go on this date with you.” He looked at me and he genuinely looked like he cared. “Please” he said one more time.

“Okay, but can it be an inside date? I don’t really feel like going outside today.” As I said this Matthew smiled and gave me a huge hug.

I walked inside the house and out the flowers in a vase. I walked into the living room and brought a blanket and some pillows with some movies. I placed everything on the couch except for the movies. Matthew sat down on the couch and motioned me to sit next to him. First, I put in The Perks of Being a Wallflower and layed next to him. Throughout the whole movie we were cuddling and when I cried at the end he hugged me close to him. We watched Insidious 2 and then Matthew had to go home.

I walked him to the door.

“This was really fun, I’m glad you came.” I said.

“I’m glad I did too.” He said as he started to lean in. I leaned in too until our lips connected and I felt sparks flying. We stood there until I heard my aunt’s car door close as she pulled up into the driveway. I pulled away and gave him a hug and walked inside. My aunt shortly followed.

“So, how was that date, huh?” she said smiling.

“It was amazing, we watched movies and talked.” I smiled thinking over the days events.

“That better be all you guys did!” my aunt said laughing. I laughed too.

“Don’t worry that’s it. I’m gonna go to bed now, night.” I said and ran upstairs changing into some shorts and a tank top. I jumped onto my bed and heard my phone buzz.

‘From Matthew:

Goodnight beautiful”

I send a text back and went to bed smiling.