Yes I know this is part 150, and I already have a cover planned for book 3. Also, strong language here, be warned
Ok, let me tell you that I am not a people person, and I have anxiety issues. I'm shocked I even have friends. So in drama we have to do a scene with a partner. Ok, fair enough and he let us pick our partners. Fine, I understand. So since I am not a people person, I usually get the leftovers and I have to do all of the work. Last time my partner blew me off and I did it with DisneyChannelFangirl in one afternoon, after school, one take. So since I have to pick leftovers, I usually get the worst options
They were
Lazy bum who makes idiotic comments and jokes in class
Kind of unreliable girl (Had her in English and she was cool)
Girl who didn't do what she doesn't like (I believe she has a disability but she's nice. I'm not hating on her because of her disability, that's the least important thing)
So I talked with my mom and she said that the middle option was my best bet, so I made that plan and then guess what....
BITCH BLEW ME OFF FOR SOMEONE ELSE! At that point, I had lost it mentally, but I got some work done and after class asked my teacher if I could do a monolouge. He said no, I had to work with someone. As you can see, there's 3 people without a partner so I could work alone and get away with it. But nope! MAKE SHADE SUFFER BECAUSE SHE CAN'T HANDLE IDIOTS AND STRESS FOR SHIT! Then I started to panic and he said it's just a grade, then I panicked even more. Why? THE IDIOTIC AMERICAN EDUCATION SYSTEM MAKES KIDS WORRY MORE ABOUT THEIR GRADES THAN THEIR OWN FUCKING SANITY!!!!!
And yesterday, I was talking to MelodyTheAngelWings and she said with my anxiety I could probably get an IEP for it so I didn't have to do group work. I thought it was cheating, but it seemed kind of ok, so I asked my mom and she said it's for people who can't work through their problems and I need to stop having a temper tantrum and do something about it. WELL I AM! IT'S CALLED FINDING A PLAN Z! YOU AREN'T MAKING IT BETTER! YOU ARE MAKING ME FEEL MORE LIKE AN IDIOT THAN I ALREADY FEEL!
What the hell do I do? I need answers, I need help
