Alpha Paris (Completed)

Chapter One "Size, isn't anything."

^A cover that was made for me a long time ago when my username was still that so.. but anyways, it goes nice with the chapter and gives you a preview of Paris^
2-22-17
1,119 words
Paris's Pov~

I breathe out calmly, staring at the cliff that I stand on. "One small jump is all it takes, one small jump to end the pain. One small jump.. to ruin my life. Which I will never do," I take a step back, remembering lots of memories that fill my thoughts.

I sit down on the rock, my feet dangling into the air as the tingles run through my body. Not mate tingles, but simple tingles from nervousness, because if I take one little move forward.. there would be no more Alpha Paris, and that scares me. I don't want an end, I just want a new beginning. My lips purse as I run a hand through my long brown hair.

I've never really been suicidal, yes I have been depressed, but suicidal? Never, why would I want to let darkness overcome me when there's always the tiniest candle waiting to lure you in, like a moth drawn to the light in the summer, on a cottage. Even though the light leads the moth to the light that burns it to death, it saved it in a way. A way unknown, at least to us, but not our creator.

The Moon Goddess.

I've asked her many times what it was like to be mate less, how I would survive and even though I have no answer, I know time will give me the chance.

I shut my eyes tightly, already hearing the footsteps as they get closer, knowing it's my father. "Paris, they need you for a meeting.. they say it's very important. Jackson will be by your side the whole time." I nod my head curtly, watching the waterfall in the distance, the water falls quickly, just like a person does for someone they love.. I didn't know if I had ever really loved Xavier, despite the pain, I knew I cared for him deeply and I want to use the love word, but something is pulling me back.

"Paris, we need to-" I cut my father off with a quick snap of my hand, letting the peaceful sound of water splashing to fill my ears.

Why can't life be this beautiful wherever you are?

"I'm coming." I whisper out hoarsely, standing up and wiping my black sweater off, that covers my shorts. I put my hands in the pockets of the sweater and begin to walk side by side with my father, his hand wrapping around my side as I lean my head on his shoulder.

"It'll get easier Paris. You'll find love," I feel his pain in his voice, knowing that he's remembering the grin on my mother's face whenever he said her apple pie was good, or the love in her eyes when she looked at him, or even the small things like how her eyes glowed when she seen us, how she'd sigh contentedly when he'd hug her, how she loved us, despite the pain or agitation we'd cause her. She always loved us.

"How dad!" I yell, feeling anger pulse through my veins. I know it's not his fault but this is all he's been saying since I left Xavier. 'It'll get better Paris' 'Just give fate your life, it'll take care of you' 'Paris, you'll be fine' 'Paris come on, you need to train' 'Paris you're gaining to much weight' I weight 120 pounds! How is that too much for a twenty-five year old? "All you say is I'm fine! But have you truly looked at me? All you're worried about is my weight!" I yell and feel.. tears spring upon my eyes, the salt stinging slightly.

'Paris, you're one-hundred and twenty pounds, your stomach may be flat, but your gaining weight and that makes you fat." In my eyes, whatever size you are, you are absolutely stunning. I don't care what people say, haters will be haters. Just always know, you are beautiful inside, and out.

"Size isn't anything father." I growl, storming off towards my house but he yanks me back by the wrist, making me whimper as his eyes turn black.

"Do not disrespect me young lady, I don't care what age you are, I will beat you until you respect me." Tears swell in my eyes, as I look at the sky, purposely not bowing my head. A sign of disrespect and although he will beat me- no doubt, I will stand up for myself and not cower away.

"The meeting father. What's the meeting about?" I growl out, ignoring how he starts to itch towards my neck, very annoyed with me. I need to change the conversation and fast, because I know that no matter what he says or do- he will, beat me.

"You will be married soon." He lets go of my wrist as I begin to walk away, him following close behind me. I shut my eyes, annoyed by this idea. Who would consider such a thing? I'm not even in the right mind to make a simple decision about what to wear and they make this decision? For me to be married? To who? I rejected my mate.

"I rejected my mate." I say standing in front of my door, crossing my arms as I look into his now brown eyes. The color of chocolate..

"Don't worry, we found someone good enough to be Alpha so you can be considered Luna. He will run the pack-" I cut him off, feeling my anger beginning to snap.

"I run the pack. This is my pack and no one will boss me around. Who is this man you speak of?" I growl out, putting my hand on the door handle.

"Alpha Grayson," my body feels numb as I remember him. My best friend.. but he had found his mate when I rejected mine, and he was engaged to her.

"He has a mate," I whisper quietly and my father laughs, hitting my arm making me tense.

"So? He'd do anything for you and unless you find your mate in-" he looks down at his watch, smirking devilishly. "Three weeks, then you will marry Grayson, liking it or not." With that, my father is turning into a wolf and running off, leaving my fist to collide with concrete.

It snaps, the bones breaking but I'm so angry that I don't pay attention to the pain as it goes back to normal.

"Find your mate in three weeks, or like it or not, you will marry Grayson."