When I Die |HBR {Editing}

04

Hunter

We continue studying until she falls asleep. I pick her up and move her to the bed. Then I cuddle next to her. When I wake up she's  not next to me. 

"Chance?" I ask. "Chance?" I say getting freaked out. I roll over to see a note on the chair. I get scared as I unfold it.

Hunter,
You are an amazing best friend and an even better boyfriend. I love you a lot. I hope you don't hate me for the choices I made. Just know that this happening was not your fault. I love you so much but I just can't take it anymore. I don't want to walk anywhere and get afraid that I might run into Avery. I know you are going to be sad. I know you are going to be mad. But stay strong. For me and for your family. I know you have questions like why did I do this? And why couldn't you help? And you thought it was getting better. I know you know why I did this. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't see her anymore. You couldn't help me anymore. You couldn't change anything. You couldn't stop me from doing this. And I know you thought everything was getting better and with you it was. When I spent time with you I was the happiest me I could ever be. I love you and I know I have written that a lot but I do love you. I know that the first couple of months are going to be hard without me and I know you are crying as you read this and that you are blaming yourself for all of this. It isn't your fault. And I don't want this to be hard for you. I want you to move one and live your life. I know you might miss me a lot and that you might want to give up but for me please don't. I'm running out of paper room so I might as well say goodbye. So... Goodbye Hunter. I love you so much. I love you more than words can explain. Please forgive me for this.
Love,
Chance

I read as the tears roll down my eyes. I run to the bathroom to see her lifeless body with a bottle of pills on the floor. I cry even harder. I run to her dead body and hug her. 

"I love you so much!" I scream as I cry holding her dead body. My mom walks in. 

"Hunter what's wrong?" She asks looking at me and Chance. She sees the empty bottle and her eyes look at me worried. 

"Mom.. sh... she killed her.. herself." I stutter. 

"Why?" She asks pulling me into a hug and crying. 

"She's been being bullied for a while now and she didn't tell anyone but me. I promised I wouldn't tell but I should have told. Maybe if I told she would still be here." I cry into my mom's arms. 

"I'm so sorry Hunter." She sighs rubbing my back. Why? Why did she have to leave? Why so soon?