Hate You

chapter 13

Dawn's pov

Throughout the week, Niall hasn't really been acting like the normal sweet boy I know and love.

Every time a girl would pass by and wink at Niall, he would smirk back at her.

I know that since he is in one of biggest boybands in the world, I shouldn't be surprised by the special attention he gets from girls, but what bothers me is that he actually smirks back at them. And I even once caught him wink at one!

So you know like any other girl with her boyfriend who hopefully doesn't act like that, I nudge him or give him a look, but he always bends down in my ear saying, "You're all I want baby"

Baby.

So now I guess im not going to be called princess anymore which gave me 100x more butterflies whenever he would say that, but I guess I lost THAT title.

But I mean he still does love me...right?

I mean he still tells be I look beautiful every now and then....not as much as before but its better than nothing

I mean I could be wrong though.

Ive never really been in a relationship before so what do I know?

I mean this is seeming a little funny for me now because for all I know, all couples probably are like this....

But I have this strange feeling in my gut that this is NOT how couples are.

Even though I may love Niall, I still have a little place reserved for Harr-

WAIT! No! Don't you say his name Dawn! He cheated on you and he just wants to get in your pants! He just wants to use you!

Hes your bully after all or was considering how many years of torture hes put me through!

But at the same time, that kiss we shared on top of the building where I tried to kill myself, it seemed...magical

Like I was floating on air.

Like how I felt I could do anything

Like how I felt loved or appreciated....

Or wanted...

But if he wanted me, and if that kiss meant anything to him, he wouldn't have cheated on me.

(OMG GUYS I JUST WENT ON ANOTHER WINDOW FOR ONE SECOND WHEN I FINISHED THIS CHAPTER AND WHEN I CAME BACK TO THIS IT WAS ALLLLL GONNNNE AND I AM FREAKING OUT!!!!!! OH GOD!!!!!! NOW I HAVE TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING FROM THIS POINT ON!!!)

If he felt anything for me, he wouldn't have hurt me...

If he had felt anything after we shared that kiss on top of that building, he wouldn't have betrayed me

If he had really loved me.....

he would've fought for me....

"Helllloooo?? Earth to Dawn!" I hear Niall suddenly say while waving his hand in my face smirking

"Oh, um sorry I was just thinking" I say

"Well you must've been thinking hard because you barely noticed the 5th bell for lunch time" he says chuckling

"Yaaay! Food!" I say smiling

"This is why I love you baby" he says kissing my forehead and taking my hand in his while we walk through he doors of the cafeteria

Again with the baby...

As we walk through the doors, we go sit at our usual table where Louis, Zayn, Liam, Harry, and Taylor are all sitting at.