Dawn's pov
"D-dawn? H-hi um I-" he cleared his throat then spoke "What do you need? I-i mean what is it? Are you okay? How are you?" he saks nervously
Me being my stupid self that cant keep it together for one second lets out a little sob which is clearly noticeable
Dammit Dawn! Now hes gonna-
"Dawn?! Whats wrong?! What happened?! Why are you crying?! Are you okay?! Honey please tell me!" he blabs with concern
-blow up questions....
At first i dont say anything and take a second to control myself and take in what i'm about to do.
Why am i doing this? What am i doing? Why cant i show him that i am strong and can handle myself?
But no, i cant do that because here i am, almost on the verge of a mental breakdown crying into the phone with the last person i thought i would go to for help
"DAWN!? Are you still there?! Please talk to me honey!" he pleads with concern filled in his voice
"I-i'm fine, but can I um...meet you at the park? Like right n-now?" I ask softly
Theres silence on the other end besides lots of shuffling being heard and I cant help but feel embarrassed.
Why would he meet me in the park anyways?
He doesnt really care, he just feels bad for me, and I hate having people's pity, it makes me feel weak.
Besides hes proaby too busy having the time of his life fucking sluts and whores and getting wasted every night.
I let out a sigh and break the silence
"Y-you know what? I-its fine you really dont have to, it was stupid for me to ask, I'm assuming Lou told you about the wh-whole sleepover plan at my house so I guess I'll see y-you-"
"No! No! No! I'm already driving to the park now! And no it wasnt stupid of you to ask, Im really happy you came to me" he says as I hear a faint roar of the engine in the background
"Oh! Well um..I guess I'll see you there" I say almost happy that I get to see him again
"Actually I'm already here. Just arrived" he says proudly
"Wow! Um that was fast!" I chuckle
"Anything for you love. I'll be up in the treehouse" he says
Theres an awkward silence and after a few seconds, I break it
"Soooo um...I'm gonna uh, hang up now..." I say awkwardly
"Oh yeah! Um well, you can hang up first.." he says back
"You sure?" I ask
"Yeah go ahead ladies first" he says back
"Kay so...bye" I say
"Bye love!" he says back and I hang up the phone resting my head on the wheel making the car horn go off
I sigh, but after a couple of seconds thinking this through, I start up the car, turn on the radio and back out of the parking space, driving out of the parking lot.
Well that was awkward.
God im so stupid! Why did I do this again?!
Because you have no one else to go to
My conscience tells me
And because you still miss him
No I dont! He cheated on me!
Seriously Dawn? You still cant let it go?
Well excuse me, imagine if your boyfriend cheated on you
Dude, I'm you so yeah I do know what it feels like. You've been cheated on twice
Thaaats..not the point
It kinda is
Shut up
You're the one thats talking to herself
Well you started it!
I'm your conscience, I state the truth of how you really feel
Well...stop it!
You know you can, this is your mind well our mind. Plus, you do realize you are full on talking to yourself right?
Bye now
I swear to god, I'm going crazier by the minute.
I really hope my feelings dont get the best of me, and it makes me do something drastic and something I'll regret.
Because Niall would find out sooner or later and that CANNOT HAPPEN.
So I'm pretty much screwed if my hormones get the best of me.
Plus, it will be alot harder for me to keep my hormones and feelings under control because in all honesty, I've never stopped loving Harry and I still do love him, dare I say more than Niall, but I'm too damn loyal to Niall even though both of them are really scumbags
I let out an annoyed huff, and when I get to a red light, I turn up the radio, hoping the music will be able to distract me.
"WE ARE NEVER EVER EVER
GETTING BACK TOGETHER!" Taylor Swift sang
"Nope!" I say changing the station
"I KNEW YOU WERE TROUBLE WHE YOU WALKED IN!
SHAME ON ME NO-!"
"Nope!" I say changing the station again
"SHE TOOK HIM FASTER THAN YOU CAN SAY SABOTAGE!" Taylor Swift sang into the radio
"What is up with these Taylor Swift songs god dammit!!" I huffed out of frustration changing the station once again
"I WANT YOU BACK! I WANT YOU BACK!
WA-WANT YOU WANT YOU BACK UH!" Cher Llyod sang
"WHAT IS UP WITH THESE SONGS?!!" I yell and change the station
"AND IIIIIIIIIIIIII WILL ALWAYS LOOVE YOUUUUU OHHH!"
"Ookaaay music is overrated anyways" I say to myself turning off the radio for the rest of the drive
"Talk about mixed feelings...." I mumble to myself approaching the park
I park right next to the sidewalk, turning off the car and step out of it.
I begin to walk into the entrance and immediately see little children playing in the grass getting dirt all over themselves as they laugh and giggle not having a care in the world.
Life was so much simplier back then, then it gets all fucked up when you get to high school.
I let out a sigh and continue to head over to the tree house that Harry was waiting for me in
Every step I take, they get slower and slower until I am now face to face with it.
Am I really gonna do this?
Well theres no turning back now
"Um Harry? You up there?" I ask looking up at it
"Dawn? Yeah come on up!" I hear him say as I see a familiar mop of curls of his head peaking out looking at me with a smile
Here goes nothing
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FanfictionNow this is no sappy love story, but even Dawn, a 17 year old American teenager knows that. Dawn is a regular teenage girl who moved to London, England after her dad had moved here for business. Dawn also used to be a huge fan of the biggest boyband...
