The Way Things Are

Chapter 5

After the hospital, we go back to Spencer's. Right when we got to Spencer's, Derek automatically goes up to the bedroom.

Spencer follows Derek up the stairs, and I follow Spencer. Derek is rummaging around in Spencer's drawers when he walks in. I stand outside of the door unnoticed, and the boys start to argue with each other.

"What are you looking for?" Spencer asked Derek.

"Nothing. It just took a while before anyone opened the door to let me in. I was just wanted to make sure that you weren't going to try to do anything inappropriate to my sister," Derek answered back nonchalantly.

"What do you mean by that?"

"I mean that I don't want you having sex with my sister!"

"What the HELL! I though that you trusted me!"

"That doesn't mean that I want my sister to lose her V-card to you."

"Well, I wasn't planning on having sexual intercourse with her. At least not tonight."

"What do you mean 'Not tonight'?"

"I mean that I love your sister, and I know that she loves me too. Your sister means the world to me, and when we're both ready to take the next step in our relationship, then we will."

I walk out of the shadows into the room, and it automatically goes silent. I look at both of the boys, and storm out of the room. When I get to the bottom of the stairs, they both start to bolt towards me. They get down the stairs in like 0.5 seconds, much faster than I expected them to. They both came to me and told me that I was the only person could make them happy.

"Then why don't you two STOP discussing how I'm going to live my life! It's mine to live, not yours!" I yell to both of them.

"I was just arguing with your brother about being-" Spencer was just about to finish his sentence, but I stopped him before he could.

"No. I've had enough of it! I'll do what I want to do." I turn to Derek, "If I want Spencer to be the one that I give my virginity to, then I will. It's not your decision of who I lose it to, it's mine." I yelled to Derek as I start to cry. As soon as I feel the tears welling up in my eyes, I start to run up the stairs into Spencer's room. Spencer and Derek follow me up the stairs, but I'm already in Spencer's room and I already locked the door.

"Becky? Come on, let me in. It's Spencer, and I wanna talk to you about something," Spencer said quietly to me through the door.

"Beck, I'm sorry. I want to talk to you about this," but instead of hearing Spencer I heard Derek this time.

"If I unlock the door, the only person that can come in is Derek. That's the only person that I wanna talk to right now," I say to both of them as I get up and unlock the door. As soon as I do this, Derek walks in and closes and locks the door, as he sits on the bed next to me.

"We need to talk," Derek says to me as he turns to look at me.

"Talk about what? How you tried you tried to decide my life, and tell Spencer that him and I couldn't have sex, especially when we both know that you are no longer a virgin yourself. We are our own people Derek, and you have to understand that you don't own me. I'm not a little girl anymore," I say to him as he put his head down. I am angry, but I still am able to keep a calm voice through most of what I'm saying.

"I never thought that I would be the one having this conversation with you. I always thought that it would either be mom or dad, but not me. Look, Beck, I wanted to tell you that I was sorry for trying to run your life. I know that I can't run your life and make decisions like this for you. I know that you want to be able to take your future in your own hands and create what you want to with it. Beck, I'm truly and extremely sorry for what I tried to do," Derek said to me with a heavy heart. We both just looked at each other and instantly started to cry. As we start to cry, we also start to hug each other.

"I'm sorry for freaking out on you, and locking you out of the room. I was just pissed that you and Spencer were fighting over me and fighting about something that I should be deciding for myself," I said keeping back tears. I get up off of the bed, and see Spencer waiting outside the door, and as soon as I opened it, he grabbed my face and kissed me passionately. I kiss him back, and then I look at Derek.

"Alright, alright, that's enough guys." He says to us. "If you want, I'll go back to the motel, and I'll sleep there," Derek said with a smile on his face.

"I would love it," I said back to Derek with a wink and a smile. Derek made a face, and walked out as soon as I said that. When Spencer and I heard the front door close, he immediately closes the bedroom door and picks me up. Then he playfully tosses me onto the bed.

"Finally, some real alone time," Spencer said as he got onto the bed with me.

"What do you mean? We've had real alone before this," I said to Spencer reaching up for his neck and kissing him smiling.

"Not enough though. We've never really had any time to spend with each other to do anything."

"Wait. What about last night? And that whole day?"

"I mean that people wouldn't hear us that well, and people wouldn't know what was going on."

"Are you thinking about want I'm thinking about?" I ask with a slight grin on my face.

"It depends. What are you thinking about?"

"It's probably what I'm thinking of anyway." As I'm saying this, I start to pull some condoms out of my pants pocket. Of course, like always, we are thinking the exact same thing. He's unbuttoning my shirt, and I start to take his shirt off as well. He starts to kiss me, and I'm running my hands through his knotty brown hair. He begins to kiss my neck and down my body until he gets to my pants. I'm moving my hands up and down his back as he's kissing me. He's in the process of removing my pants as I begin to take his off. Soon enough, we're both in only our undergarments. I start to remove his boxers as he's removing my bra. Just to help him out a little, I start to remove my panties as he finishes with my bra. As he's taking my bra off, I start to run my hands up and down his back. And you probably know how that finished... ;-)