Love, Regrets and Lies

~Love, Regrets and Lies~ Chapter 2

I was dying inside. I had killed his baby sister. I dont know what i am going to do. I can't live my life like this! Kill, eat, grieve, wait, kill, eat, grieve, wait...it was too painful.

My body trembled with rage as I thought about my life. It was so unfair that I had to live like this, I never wanted this! I never wanted to be a monster! Yet here I am, crying my heart out, as it surged with remorse. My purple eyes darted over to my long talon nails, surrounded by black skin. I wanted to shed it off as if it was a second skin. It was the skin of a monster that always takes over my mind when I'm hungry. My whole body shook as my nails dug into the tree, I punched in rage as the transformation into a human again began. My long talon nails began to retract to normal size, my body began to shrink and grow at regular intervals as it began to adjust to the change, and my back began to tickle as the large wings began to retract into my leather jacket. I began to tremble as the energy was drawn into a single point in my body and in a blink of eye I stood on my human feet. Tall, skinny, pretty enough, with a long fringe to cover my eyes. Being a drow sucks. If you want to be a human, you get ugly purple eyes and where the whites are supposed to be, they're red. I mean, red! No human has red whites and purple iris'!

I heard footsteps. Heavy footfalls, probably male. One of the good things about being a drow (and there are few) is that, when you transform, your clothes stay on your past self. See, I was a human last...two years ago, then i turned to drow, and now my human form is back again, wearing the exact same clothes.

'Hello?' definetly male. 'Hello,erm, can you hear me?' I turned, and gasped. It was the male. The male whos friends and family I killed and ate. Why was he here? Then I remembered, the raid was still taking place, I left as soon as I looked the baby. Murdered her. He was there when i killed them, there when I ran away. There right now in front of me.

I patted my fringe down over my eyes.

'Hi.' I said fearlessly, though my heart was pounding in my chest.

'Yeah, hi. Are you ok? You...look a bit..troubled..'

'I''m fine. You are the one who looks troubled.' I replied in an emotionless voice. Okay, I know, I should have cut him some slack, but right then, I was more fixed on how helpless his little sister had looked.

'Alright then, are you sure? I'm sorry I didn't catch your name. Sam Worths.'

He sounded so...breezy, considering his town has just been raided by a pack of monsters and his baby sister has just been killed.

'Yeah I'm sure. My name's-' I paused, trying to remember my human name. 'Haley Daniels.'

I already knew his name, of course, but I wasn't about to let loose to this guy who's family I tore apart.

'Are you okay?' Of course he wasn't! I just killed his baby sister!

'Yeah-no. I don't know. I'm confused and tired and sore and...the list goes on, but...'

'It's okay, you don't have to tell me.' Please don't tell me, please, spare me something, please don't tell me, I don't need to me reminded.

'Well...' And so he told me. He described how I looked, and how everyone looked scared. Especially ''one of the monsters. She was younger than the rest, and she was half crying when she killed Charlotte.''

By the end, she was bawling her eyes out.

I wanted to die, yet wanted to live......

#so what did Ya think? Want some more Sam? More crying? Flashbacks? Or all of the above? Tell me in the comments. And, as I promised, drow description! Here:

Live in packs,like wolves, they have an alpha and an omega. Haley (Or Aimee Black, as her real name) is neither. In drow form, they have pitch black skin (no offence intentioned) black angel wings, black hair, and, you rread about the eyes. They can shapeshift into anything that lives. And,  when they shapeshift, their eyes stay the same. 2 weaknesses= mint (essence or leaves ..ANYTHING!) and emotional. That's all. Send me covers, titles, ,, everything!

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