Those Girls (A Dan and Phil Phan fic) *Sequel to That girl*

It's all become clear

*SELF HARM TRIGGER WARNING*

Ellen's POV

Traumatised, that's exactly how I feel. To see Phil lying there in a pool of his own blood with broken bottles on the floor and a blade in his hand was something I will never be able to un-see. He was still alive, but barely breathing and everytime we checked his pulse it seemed to be slowly fading. This wasn't an accident though, oh no, This was definitely an attempt to end his life which had backfired dreadfully. The whole of his forearms were cut to ribbons with the one deep cut which was still trickling with blood. I was still numb, I didn't know what was the next step. All I remember was Dan running past me with a damp towel and wrapping it tightly around the bloody wound.

"Ell!! Ring an ambulance NOW!!"

I fumbled my phone, trying to control the shaking of my hands enough to dial 999.

"We need an ambulance!!! We have someone bleeding to death!!! His name is Phil Lester and he's tried to kill himself!!!"

"Miss, please just stay calm for me! Can you feel a pulse?"

"yes but it feels like it's slowing!!"

"No, that's fine. All we want you to do is apply pressure and an ambulance will get to you as soon as we can"

The next few minutes were excrusiating. We were just sat there with Phil, our friend who we had just abandoned and neglected these last few weeks, while he was bleeding. At first glance the cuts seemed bad, but upon closer inspection, they weren't as bad as they initially seemed. It had to be the amount of alcohol Phil had consumed that was thinning his blood rather drasically. There was three vodka bottles on the floor and a ton of empty cans in the kitchen, That amount of alcohol would make his blood thinner and making his cuts bleed a hell of a lot more. Dan was silent. His best friend might not make it and for the last week he's avoided him at all costs. You could tell he just felt selfish and stupid, and that was hard for me to see. Now I was thinking about everything that had happened in the last 7 or so months. Meeting them both back at vidcon, the mess we got into, recovering our friendship and now this whole mess with Carlie and Joe which has lead to this...SHIT! Carlie and Joe don't know! I need to ring them! As soon as I noticed it was a little too late, next thing we knew we were in the ambulance with him and on our way to the hospital. When we got there we couldn't be with him. He needed to go to theater and possibly need a blood transfusion so now was our chance to finally ring Carlie and get her down here. When I told her what had happened she didn't say a word to me, you could hear Joe questioning her "who is it? what's happened?" but she just continued to be silent until a sniffle made her tears become apparent to us. Joe then grabbed the phone off her and started to ask what was going on.

"What's happened, Ellen? Carlie's really upset?"

"Phil's in hospital cause he's tried to take his own life but it didn't work out and he's barely alive and in surgery now to trasfer blood, stitch him up and to bandage his arms"

"Bloody hell! Well we're coming into London now from Brighton but there's a hell of a lot of traffic so I dunno how long we'll be?"

"Just be as quick as you can! We don't know how long it'll be before he can be seen anyway but we want everyone to be here when he wakes up"

"Okay Ellen, We'll be there really soon"

*2 hours later*

Everyone was here and we were now able to see him. Phil was still out cold, but now he had everything he needed to get better. We decided we would go in one by one, say what we really wanted to say to him in the hope that somehow he may actually be able to hear us. I went in first just to say something little.

"Phil, why did it come to this? I know me and Dan neglected you this last week but self harm and attempted suicide isn't something you have to do! we really care about you Phil and we wouldn't know what to do without you. Please don't do it again, We all care too much about you to have to live without you"

Carlie's POV

"Phil...I don't know what to say except I'm so so sorry for what I've done to you this last month. I can't help but feel like this is my fault and I know you might not ever want to talk to me ever again, but I value your friendship so much. I shouldn't have screamed at you the way I did and said those awful things. I guess I was just so stupid and now I've lost someone very important from my life. You don't need to evaluate your life, you will find someone soon, I promise. Get well soon Phil, I hate to see you this way"

Phil's POV

It went wrong. The whole thing went horribly wrong. I shouldn't be here right now, I should be dead with no worries anymore. Instead I can hear the heart monitor beside me beeping before the door opens and someone sits beside me. I don't open my eyes though, I just sit there pretending to sleep while they begin to speak.

"Phil? Why did you do this?"  It was Dan.

"I know it may have seemed like we didn't care but my god that couldn't be further from the truth! You're like a brother to me and more if that's possible! I know I shouldn't have ignored you the way I have but you don't know how down and disappointed in myself I feel right now. What Carlie did was wrong Phil, and we all know that but you need to know she still cares about you a lot as a friend. What she said though, about evaluating your life, I've done that and I think you should too. I've thought about everything and now I'm starting to worry a little because I haven't told Ellen the full truth about what happened when she was away for the weekend. I told her I slept with someone, which I did, but what I never told her was that it was a guy. Then when she said that at your place last week, It brought it all back to me and I've been questioning my sexuality. I care about Ellen, More than words can say! but then I also see some guys and can't help but be intrigued by them. I guess what I'm trying to say is, think about that yourself. Me and you, we're very alike and I just think, maybe you have the same issue as me and that's why it's not working with girls. You get well soon Phil, I want you to come out of this with a new look on life and to find someone you stay with forever, whether they're boy, girl, young or old"

What he was saying to me...was it true? Was I straight, gay, bisexual? Maybe he was right. I opened my eyes, blinked a few times to regain my focus and there he was, sat beside my bed smiling at me and crying. His beautiful eyes staring at mine. He grabbed the tips of my fingers not to disrupt the IV in the back of my hand. I got a strange sensation in my stomach.

"Phil...Did you hear any of that?"

"Yeah, I heard it all"

"So, you will think about it won't you? I know it might seem a little harsh, but trust me Phil I have a LOT of sorting out to do. I love Ellen more than you could imagine but at the same time there is this guy that I've realised I really like."

The look he gave me then made the feeling in my stomach get even more intense. Wow...It's all become clear now. I like my best friend, and he likes me.

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Well that is what you call a plot twist!!! :) I hope you like it and unexpectedly I think this fic will be ending really soon and In less parts than I thought. Im totally making this into a trilogy and now the big plot twist/secret is out about Dan and Phil being gay I can tell you the name of the final story will be "Those Guys" fitting in with the that girl/those girls theme :) Please let me know what you think!

Carlie x