Broken Soul Looking For Love

New beginnings

{ A few weeks & legal documents later . . . }

It's been awhile since I lived with my dad. Everything was all new to me now. New house, new furniture , new cars & new kids. I knew I had a brother named Tae'jon ( Tj ) and a sister named Sasha, but I never lived with them before. I got used to   it after awhile though. Everything seemed to just flow.

My dad and I never really spoke about the " worst days". He always said " whatever happened in your mothers custody, stays there. " My dad and I have always been best friends . Since the day I was born it's been me and him, despite our crazy fall outs. He's always been my heart.
     I was enrolled into Neptune High school for my freshman year. The school year wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. Making friends was never easy for me though so I just kept to myself majority of the time. I only made one friend through out the year. Her name was Kayla. Sweet, brown skin girl. We were interested in the same things and we clicked so well together. I have to say she helped me get through a lot. As of right now, we still remain bestfriends , but she calls me her sister.
Having little to no friends in high school you'd think you wouldn't have any drama . I soon learned that I was completely wrong. It got so bad to a point where I felt like the entire school was against me. Drama in high school has always been bullshit for as long as I can remember, but Neptune was something different ! I had groups of females not liking me because their boyfriend tried to get with me. I had girls not liking me just because their friends didn't like me. I even had a couple males despise me. Of course they were the males that were more on the feminine side.
Towards the end of my freshman year, I dated this boy named Ahmad. Tall , brown skin boy. We talked for awhile but it just simply didn't work out. He had a lot of other male friends. Of course in this day and age, everyone considered their self a "gang banger "so they called themselves 3h. I was friends with each and everyone of them through Ahmad.
I remember this specific group of people who absolutely hated me. Dainaja , Alexis, Kyle, Ny & a few others . Why they hated me, still have the slightest idea. A couple girls in this click were so pretty and thick too, so I never understood the beef we had. It wasn't because I looked better then them or anything . So what was the problem ? I'd always be nice to them yet still keep my distance . I hated drama because I had enough at home.
I previously met Dainaja at a church event during the summer. We didn't speak , but I could tell she was a really fun person. I never knew or heard about Alexis but she looked so good. Kyle was a complete stranger to me , but he seemed lit. Ny was a stranger to me as well but she looked like a nice girl. She was short and dark skinned, who I heard can sing. If any of y'all know me , y'all know that's the key to my heart right there . I was definitely low key feeling her ways, despite her hating me.
These people along with a few other unimportant people loved to start rumors. I remember they started telling the whole school that I had sex with each and every boy in 3h. BOY! My feelings were so hurt , honestly. I hated liars . It got so bad that Kyle used to go around telling people that liked me that I was foul and dirty because I supposedly had sex with all these boys. He knew it wasn't true, but him seeing me hurt is what he liked about it all. Out of all the people I've had issues with in high school , Kyle is probably the worst person.