Let love find you, while you find yourself

Dairy

He couldn't wait to immerse himself into the pages. The day, surprisingly, made him feel warm and fuzzy. It was just an effortlessly beautiful day. He wished for more such meets. They wanted to know each other better before plunging the I do". Before even he could properly park his car, Om and Priyanka bombarded him with questions about their to-be bhabhi. They couldnt accompany him but were impatient for all the gossip. Dadi, Shakti and Pinky asked them to relax, to first let him atleast come inside. All this time Shivaay was smiling dreamily and was blushing to a shade of hue. As soon as Shivaay entered his giant bedroom followed by the two, he was asked to give every minute detail about Anika and whatever happened. His face was etched with a rare serene smile all the while he spoke about Anika and the meeting, which didn’t go unnoticed by the two. They were happy for him. At times Om felt Shivaay didnt have a life of his own, he was not seen socializing, and he had no hobbies to pursue; for Shivaay all that mattered was his family and their needs. Om wanted him to settle and wished for a perfect wife who would understand and complete Shivaay. Listening to the blush in Shivaay's voice, Om was pleasantly surprised of the effect Anika had on him. A lot of alliances came for Shivaay, but none made the difference that Anika made. Mr Mehta, a new client of Shakti, was also groom hunting for Anika; and as if designed by destiny they spoke about marriage and proposals were made. But before letting Shivaay get a whiff of the news, Shakti, Pinky and Dadi met Anika to assure themselves if she'd be the perfect match for him. Anika wooed everyone with her looks, nature and customs; and Dadi was so floored by her, that she wanted the marriage to happen tomorrow, if that was possible.
After Om and Priyanka left, he quickly changed and readied himself to start reading the diary. To his perfect fortune” there was a call from his office for an urgent meeting. Soon he left for work deciding to read the diary later.

It was half past 12 when he got back, his bed was enticing him but Anika and those pages overpowered his senses and he resorted to reading the diary. So he quickly freshened up and started to read. He traced her beautiful handwriting.

Is it really true that every friendship eventually culminates into love? But is it really possible to take a u-turn from the friendship turned love to friendship again? But isnt a friendship turning into love the best? I mean come on! You now have a lifelong partner-in-crime.
But, love has always been a scattered puzzle which just doesn't comes right; however differently one puts the pieces.

It's a really strange predicament when you feel attracted to that one person, who IS a friend. The dilemma and the struggles take you on an emotional ride, because those feelings are all over the place.
It's difficult because first you don't even know if it’s anything more than an overwhelming friendship, because emotional bonding ain't new with the person. You have all your friendship life been on an emotional ride with the person but then what is new to suddenly make you look at the same person in a new light. It sometime feels that we are just being too complacent and taking the friendship and emotional dependency for granted; maybe there are no feelings. Maybe feeling for a friend is the easiest way to find love. And as if all these "it's complicated" feelings aren't enough; the biggest dilemma is the fear of losing that friendship. The series of what ifs start; what if I confess and they dont feel the same? What if I come across as creepy? What if my friendship is scarred forever? What if I am thinking too much and I realize it’s not love? Are we just being too precocious about the feelings? And a lot many what ifs make our life an emotional rollercoaster.

Time and again we've known that love and friendship are two sides of the same coin and that they compliment the best; but the change in the feelings isn't the easiest to comprehend.

At the end, it all zeroes down to if one is ready to take the plunge and maybe, just maybe scar the friendship forever.