Metanoia // The Goonies

14; to be me

a/n: Im seriously sorry it's taken me so long to update. guys i'm so busy like you have no idea. so i honestly don't know when this is going to be posted but it's currently March 2nd and this coming weekend is the last weekend im here before i'm gone for my trip and then the 10th i'll be on a flight to Vegas. Now I will try to write as much as I can on the plane but I'll be honest with you I'm going to be watching my movies so yeah. and then I won't be back until like the 19th soooooo I'll try to keep up. but anyways with school and everything else with the trip i've been busy. sorry but enjoy. lots of love, ash ❤❤

S E P T E M B E R      12th     1 9 9 3
Laura

I watched as the nurses came in. Exactly 8 am like everyday. They checked the swelling, her vitals, and more. Nothing changed. I watched as she laid peacefully on her bed. I read stories to her and sometimes I read her the ones she wrote before the first accident.

About a couple days of staying here Peter and Dereck went home to do work and school. They wanted to stay but we still needed to pay bills and Dereck couldn't afford being behind waiting for his sister to wake up. Finally 10 rolled around and just on time Dale strolled in a cup of coffee in one hand and a newspaper in the other. He would sit with me until usually 1 in the afternoon but he was always on the phone talking to agencies and making her stories. Another documentary was on tonight about all that has happened.

We were worried by now she wouldn't wake up. By this time she woke up, the last time something like this happened. The doctors have done brain scans and nothing has seemed to change other than the swelling. It was harder on me each time. I lost my daughter once and just when I was going to get her back she was taken from me again.

Soon 1 came and Dale left making an excuse which I soon learned by the second week of waiting meant he was going to get ready so he could go out to meet girls and get a beer tonight. Lucky for him he's wealthy and can afford to stay in an unknown area and fall perfectly into line where I stayed right here with a small luggage and the shower in Estella's room.

Nurses would try and come and talk to me but I didn't want to talk. I just wanted my daughter to wake up and I wanted her to come stay with us in her old room. I wanted everything to be like it should've been if the first accident never happened. I don't care if I was being selfish or not.

Mikey

"Hey Chunk what time is it?" Andy yelled from the couch in our living room. Chunk popped up from behind the fridge door whip cream all over his face. He looked at the clock.

"It's 6:56" he answered and Andy stood from the couch clicking the TV on.

"Steph isn't Estella supposed to be on at 7?" the name made my heart clench. I tightened my jaw as I removed my vision from everyone in the room to the ground.

"Yeah I wanna see how she's been" Steph said walking into the living room from the kitchen.

"You okay babe?" Frankie touched my arm. I broke out of my thoughts looking to her. She was worried like everyone else. I solemnly nodded and she looked away. I had centered myself off again. I wasn't talking and I defiantly avoided hanging out with them as much as possible. Right now I was at a fault seeing they were hanging out at the place I live.

Oddly enough but I didn't notice it. How she slowly got me to be me again. I had stopped all my worries about everything with her. I thought about the now and enjoyed my time with my friends more than I had in a long time. Now that she is gone the worries of the future were back with a few more including her. What if I didn't get to go on another adventure? What if my friends all make lives of their own and leave? Maybe me secluding myself would make our departing easier? What if I never get the chance to love her the way I should've?

"Look it's on!" Data yelled pointing at the screen. Chunk ran to us from the fridge and we all sat as her beautiful face appeared on the screen. I missed her like hell.

Bunny Jenkins, Estella Borderdale. The beautiful girl who stole our hearts. A while ago we revisited this girls past who was hiding more behind her smile than we thought. After being in recent contact with Dale Jenkins we're here to fill you in. About a month ago he found Estella residing in a small town near the goon docks of Astoria, Oregon.

Chunk let out a yell in pride of our town as I rolled my eyes tuning back into the TV that still held the face of the beautiful girl I was in love with.

Dale said it took a while to let go of her new lifestyle there but within a few days they were on their way back to Idaho. Now for the news you might not be expecting. As they were leaving Oregon a truck driver missed a stop sign but didn't miss Estella's car.

Andy dropped the popcorn bowl moving to turn the TV up. My stomach dropped and my throat became dry. I prayed what came out of his mouth next would be good news.

She was hit pretty hard. Dale pulled her out of the car as she was unconscious sending the unharmed truck driver for help. They got her to the nearest hospital. Doctors thought everything would be okay. A few of her ribs were cracked and stitches helped most of the damage. She had hit her head pretty hard but Doctors had managed to get swelling down and within a few hours she was awake.

"Thank goodness" Mouth said squeezing Stephs hand. I thanked God for the news that actually did end up to be good but I spoke to soon.

Sadly with Estella's past full of memory loss and being put into a foster home with only a few things doctors weren't notified of the previous head injuries she has had. Swelling had gone back up and the Doctors didn't know and soon Estella closed her eyes once more for rest.

A tear slipped down my cheek and I wiped it away before anyone noticed. I was going to fight it. She was okay. I told myself she was okay and I knew she would be.

It's been almost a month since then and as of right now she's still taking that rest. Doctors aren't sure when she will wake up but the chances are seeming slimmer as each day passes. The last time she was in a coma she was up by now. The swelling to the brain hasn't gone down and no sign or any response signal has been seen.

Steph got up and left the room trying to hide the loud sobs escaping her lips. I wanted to do the same. Everyone was crying or close to it except for Frankie. What hurt the most is we were all oblivious to it. We never suspected anything was wrong even though we never received a call. We were expecting one but never questioned why we didn't get one. We should have known.

Estella the girl we knew as Bunny will always bring a smile to our face. Please keep her in your prayers along with family and friends. For the sweetest girl alive deserves to bring more happiness to the world. Joey Romana signing out.

I stood. I couldn't be in the room. Or even the house. I needed some air. I felt like I couldn't breath and the walls were closing in on me.

I should have been with her.

Maybe then she would have never left.