Together let's breathe - Josh Dun fanfic

4. Josh

I must have slept because I wake up. I look at my phone to if I slept through the night. It's morning and I have a text from Debby. I don't read it though. There is no need to stress myself out already. I get out of my bunk and head to the bathroom. I catch myself in the mirror and that's when I remember I didn't shower last night. Maybe this new venue will have a shower. My hair is a mess and my make up is smudged all over my eyes. I could wipe it off, but really who will care? I won't see Tyler until sound check because he will be with Jenna. I may not miss Debby, but I sure do miss Tyler. It's funny how you can miss someone you see everyday.

In the living room I turn on the TV. Just then the bus door opens and Marie comes in holding and iced coffee and a paper bag. When she sees me on the couch she smiles like she did last night at the show.

"I have your coffee and breakfast!" she says handing me the cup and bag.

I take a sip and look into the bag and it's my usual order. I guess that is how famous I have become that I don't get my own coffee anymore.

"Thanks. This is perfect." There is that smile again. "So how was the show last night?" I ask before I take another drink of coffee.

"It was incredible! I've never been that close before..." She trails off and looks embarrassed like she said the wrong thing.

I laugh a little. "Alright so how many twenty one pilots shows have you been to?"

She squirms a little. "That was number six, but by far the best."

"I'm glad. I could tell you were having fun" Am I flirting? I have no idea. "If anyone asks that was your first show" I add.

I say this more for me than for her. I doubt anyone would care that she was a fan, but they would if they knew I was flirting with my employee. She nods in agreement.

"I have to go to the morning staff meeting"

I can tell in her voice she doesn't want to go, like she is being torn away from something important or someone. She doesn't move though, waiting for my permission to leave. I don't want her to, but I know she has to.

"Have fun!" I give her a big goofy smile. "I'll see you later and thanks again for the coffee!"

She waves goodbye and I'm alone again.

I don't see Marie again until lunch. I have since showered so maybe I look more human. She sits next to me in the venue's cafeteria and Tyler and Jenna sit across from me. The four of us laugh and joke like we have all known each other forever. Marie fits in perfectly. For a moment I'm not alone.

We have another great show and I'm a sweaty mess again. Maybe tonight I can get Tyler to hang out with me. In the dressing room I ask

"Can you stay on my bus tonight? I don't want to be alone."

Tyler looks at me with sad, concerned eyes.

"Not tonight. Jenna is still here, but once she goes back home I promise we will spend lot of time together."

I start to get angry thinking about how before they were married the three of us could share a bus. Why does that need to change just because they now share a name? I guess it's because they are having sex now so they want their space. Once when we shared a bus Debby and I had sex in my bunk while Tyler was in his bunk right across from us. He never knew, so why would I know?

I don't want Tyler to see me get upset so I just leave. On my way back to the bus I hear my phone ding and it's Tyler asking me if I'm okay. Of course I'm not okay. I'm tired of being abandoned by my best friend. I know it's not his fault and he isn't doing it to hurt me, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. I text back a simple yes because I know if I don't he will just call until I answer.

I open the bus door and climb in to see Marie in the kitchen dressed in her pajamas. She's wearing long pants and a crop top so I can see the top of her hips. I stop in my tracks and can't help but to stare as she tries to reach into the top cabinet. Her shirt rides up more and I can see her bellybutton. She sees me and jumps back surprised with her hand over her heart.

"You scared me Josh!' She says between breaths.

I like the way my name sounds in her mouth. I wonder what it would sound like if she was moaning it in my ear. I shake my head to try to get rid of the thought.

"Sorry. Do you need help?" I point to the cabinet she was just trying to get into.

"Yeah, for some reason Steve assigned the highest cabinet to the shortest person. I'm trying to get my Oreo's."

"I'm the perfect man for the job and all it will cost you is one Oreo." I give her a wink.

She giggles and it is too much for me to handle. I dig into the cabinet and pull out the package of cookies.

"My hero!" She says like she is in a fairy tale.

I don't know what comes over me, but I lean in close and she doesn't back away. Suddenly I feel my lips touching hers and before I know it we are kissing. I swear I can feel a spark in my lips. Her lips taste faintly of strawberries. I think this is the best kiss I've ever had.