Bound By Blood

Chapter 13 - Forgiveness

Heyy, I have updated again! So ive been thinking about this book for ages, but not about what happeneds around now, so it might be a bit boring --this chapter-- but I will try to think of some ideas. Enjoy..

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Chapter 13 - Forgiveness

Eilsa's POV.

I awoke in my room, alone again. I sat up and looked around. Jonny was gone, I missed his company. The white curtains where pulled closed, but still sun light managed to stream in. My room was still empty, and didn't seem like me. I had plans on what I would want to do to the room, but I wasn't sure if Tom would let me change it.

I got out of my warm cozy bed and walked over to to my full body mirror, my messy bed hair was alway something to tackle. After taming to wild beast of my hair, I walked to the door of my room. I opened it slightly and pocked my head out.

Tom and his friends where in the livingroom, talking about something, I didn't think that Tom had met Chris or Robert before but maybe he has. I walked out of my room and into the hallway. Why am I hiding away, im normally bold and uncareing of other peoples thoughts.

I walked down the corridor trying to regain my confidence, but as I got down to the living room, and they all turned to stare at me, my confidence dissapered. I gave them a shy smile, they probably hated me after I yelled and insulted them earlier. Thankfully I got a smile back from them, with a happy sigh I walked over to the fridge, pulling out a water bottle.

I heard someone get up and imediantly new it was Tom. I turned to see him standing beside me, I didnt know what to say, or what he would say.

"I'm sorry, for skipping school." I whispered, I don't know why I apoligised first, it wasn't like me, but I just don't want to lose anyone else. I guess.

"Did you just apoligise?" Tom asked a bit shocked, this affended me somehow, I sighed and tryed to push past him, but he grabbed my arm.

"Im sorry, I've just never heard you apoligise before." He said, I turned away from him to look out the window behind me, I was extreamly embaressed. Tom turned my head gently so I was looking him in the eye.

"Im sorry, for being rude to Jonny, and over reacting." He said sinserly, I could tell that he really ment it.

I didn't know what to sat, or do. I just stood there looking at him with regret.

"Promise me, you will listen more and not skip school again." He said like my father, which of course made me tear up. Tom must of noticed my saddness because him embraced me into a heart warming hug.

"I will try." I replied, I don't promise things anymore, promise's get broken, and leave hearts broken, I know from experiance. Tom seemed to take my offer and I thanked him menterly for it.

After we broke from the hug, something im not used to, Tom turned to a staring Chris and Robert.

"Oh, um Chris and Robert this is Eilsa." He said, introducing me properly instead of how we talked earlier. "And Eilsa, this is Chris and Robert. I will be filming with them soon, so I thought I would get to know them, they where in this part of the contoury anyway, so when better to do it." He said, explaining there presence. But one question lingered in my head.

"Your going to film?" I asked Tom, he smile looking happy.

"Yes, at the end of the week." He answered seeming extreamly excited about it.

"So you are going to go off shooting." I summed up, Tom nodded, my happiness smashed into thousands of peices. "Wh-What so your just going to send me back to the orphanige?" I asked, my trust in him slipping a way.

"No, of course not, why would you think that?" He asked shocked at my notion.

"Well what would you do with me, have me following around behind you as you chatted with you celebraty friends? While you film what would I do?" I asked my voice wavering, I don't want to trail around as Tom did celebraty stuff, I mean, im not famous, im just related to him, what would I do?

"Look I don't like these sort of things, My father used to take me to all the ballroom gatherings, him and mum would socalise, and I was left, in the corner, by my self. I dont want to do that again."

"Eilsa, there will be plenty of stuff for you to do, you will have fun come on, we can go to disney land." Tom tryed to purswade me, wait disney land, was it somewhere abroud?

"Where excatly would you be filming?" I asked, not really wanting to know the answer.

"California." Tom answered, he was not seeming a little worried.

"... We would travle, by plane?" I asked my voice quiet, as I stared at the floor, no not plane, we can't go by plane.

"..Yes, but it will be alright don't worry." Tom said sovingly. I shook my head vigerously.

" No, no flying, cant go on planes." I muttered, starting to have a panic attack, my chest felt tight and my heart was beating extreamly fast.

"Eilsa, Eilsa, are you okay?" Tom asked holding my shoulder to support me. I gripped the kitched work surface trying to not collapse, my vision went fuzzy and my head spining.

"Can't go on planes." I managed to utter before falling to the floor, I managed to stay awake, but only slightly.

Chris and Robert came over to us, looking very conserned.

"Is she alright?" One asked, but I couldn't make out which one it was, I started to re gain a bit of strenth, Tom was leaning beside me, whispering to me, telling me I would be alright, and to breath deeply. He handed me my water as I started to breath a bit better.

"Are you okay?" Tom asked eventually, I was extreamly embaresed now. I tryed to stand, but wobbled a bit, Tom caught me before I feel again, once I had regained balance I pushed his hands away and started to walk away.

"Im fine." I uttured before stumbeling down the hall and into my room.

No one came after me, I had pushed Tom away when he was trying to help me. I just keep pushing people away, it's in my nature. I do want a family, but I want my family, my mother, my father. I wanted everything to be right, go back to normal, but I knew that would never happen, no matture how hard I wished.

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Just in case you didn't know, I changed them from watching Avengerson chaoter 7 or 6 to watching Thor 1 so I could write about them filming the Avengers. Just if you didn't know...