I wasn't thinking straight. I was in a state of ecstasy. Ezekiel had some soft ass lips and I loved the feel of being wrapped in his arms. His hold on me was intoxicating. I wanted and needed more. I had straddled his lap and we was kissing real passionately. With instinct I started moving back and forth on him. I was moving to some lil tune in my head and I was no longer thinking for myself. He started undoing the body suit and I didn't stop him. For some reason I was intrigued to see what he was gonna do to me or for me. He pulled the body suit down to my belly button, exposing the black lace bra I had on. He stopped kissing me back for a second and said get up.
"Can I take this off of you" he said holding my waist.
"Sure" I was kinda hesitant but I wasn't scarred.
He sat me on his left thigh and took the heels he had just put on minutes before Off. He stood me back up and took the body suit off. He wasn't moving with urgency like other niggas would so I wondered what was going through his mind. He held my body in between his legs, with his head on my stomach.
"Lil shorty, ion know what you did to me"
I laughed because to be honest I didn't know what he did to me either. If he were any other nigga I wouldn't even kiss him back. Shit was a bit crazy.
He started to take off his white button up and I just stood there. He had tattoos all over his body. They were peeking out from behind his vneck and I was intrigued. He stood up, looked me in my eyes and removed the vneck from over his head. His dark skin was illuminated by the dim light in his room, his abs were chiseled and his tattoo going across his chest was on full display. He had to have put some type of lotion on before he got dressed because his skin looked so soft and smooth, and a bit shiny. My weakness for all I knew was standing in front of me.
"You good lil shorty?" He asked, I didn't say anything just looked at him in awe.
"Kya, is you good? Are you comfortable?"
I shook my head yes, I didn't have a reason to be uncomfortable. He had already seen me in my bra and panties just hours earlier. He grabbed my hand when he sat back on the bed.
"Lil shorty if you want me to stop anything I'm doing just say that. I want you to be comfortable around me. Ion want you to be scared of me or think I won't listen to you". I wasn't listening to nothing he said because I was too busy fantasizing about him. I just shook my head yes when he was done talking. He grabbed me by my waist and sat me on his lap, I wrapped my arms around his neck. His face was eye level with my chest and he inhaled whatever scent was coming off of my body. I wondered could I be his weakness too.
The thought of having sex with him ran across my mind, but it was only a thought. I hadn't had sex in a year and a half and never really thought I'd have it again until tonight. This made me nervous. I forgot how to have sex, I forgot how to do anything other than kiss. I didn't wanna disappoint him or give him a reason to stop liking me because I couldn't perform in the bedroom. I looked down at him.
"Ezekiel" I said a bit over a whisper. He looked up at me attentively. "I haven't had sex in over a year and a half and I just don't think I'm ready."
"I didn't plan on having sex with you Kya"
"Well how I'm suppose to know that" I was a bit salty but I had to play it cool.
"Ion know. But I'm not gonna do nothing you don't want me to do I told you that." I kissed him because I believed him and I now trusted him. With everything that happened leading up to this point Ezekiel was doing everything that he said he would or to make me feel comfortable. I appreciated him for that. This kiss was more passionate than the others and Feeling his manhood where it was at I started to get a tingling sensation. Shit. What was this boy doing to me I thought.
He stood up, and wrapped my legs around his waist. He held me up by cupping the bottom of my thighs with his hands. He turned around and layed me on my back, with my legs still around his waist. He looked in my eyes, "Can I relieve some of your stress?" I was Somewhat in a daze but I still said, "You can try" he undid the bra I had on while kissing me. He took my arms out and tossed it at the top of the bed, he started making a trail of kisses down my body. First my neck, then to my chest, and soon after to my stomach. I felt my body tensing up. "Relax Kya, I'm not gonna do nothing you don't want me to." His voice was so soothing. Within seconds he was pulling my underwear off and I was naked at the edge of his bed. I looked at him and he had a look of hunger in his eyes. It was sexy to say the least. I'm glad that I had shaved just two days before because if not the beast would've been unleashed. I laughed at myself when I thought this. I had issues.
"Ezekiel" I called his name.
"Yeah Kya" he looked up at me.
"Can You Just Like be careful with whatever you know you Finna Do?" I asked not because I didn't want him to do it but because I did but it seemed like he was a soul snatcher.
"Who said I Was Finna do anything?"
"Well damn then." I was salty as hell once again. He was playing games and I wasn't for it. I could hear him laughing but wasn't shit Funny.
"I'm joking. But if you don't want me to do nothing just say that. I don't want you to feel like I'm Tryna take advantage or nothing. I just.." I cut him off before he could finish his sentence.
"You don't gotta keep telling me that. I understand Ezekiel, and I feel like I'm old enough to know What I'm getting myself into if we do anything" only half of that was true. We hadn't yet made it to dinner for obvious reasons so I didn't know what he needed to explain to me. I wanted to be his girlfriend but he made it seem like that was such a hard thing to do. On the outside it looked like he was ready to pull the trigger on anybody that stepped to him wrong, but on the inside he was like a teddy bear. Soft. I didn't know why I allowed him to take my clothes off and undergarments because he never officially asked if I wanted to be his girl. Well at least not how I wanted him to. What if this was his way of sealing the deal. Did he do this with every girl? My thoughts started to get the best of me and I hadn't heard anything he was saying until the last part.
"... Kya, I just never felt how I feel about you for anybody else and im keeping it a buck. I'm Doin shit, feelin shit, and thinkin shit that I ain't never did, felt or thought before. I never asked you to be my girl because I'm probably not the nigga for you, but if you wanna give us a chance then I'm not gonna deny you that. Girls have fucked with me for all the wrong reasons but you, it seem like you wanna fuck with me for all the right reasons."
"Okay Ezekiel"
He looked at me. His facial expression had never changed from when he first started kissing me. He still looked hungry, and at this point I wanted to feed him.
"Finish what you started", he looked at me in disbelief when I said that. He let out a silent laugh and started kissing me down there.
