You and I (Joey Graceffa)

Chapter 42

Lina's Pov

I open my eyes and feel my face, the dried tears making it hard to smile. I get up and walk into the bathroom. My mirrored self looks gross, swollen eyes, deep circles under them.

I walk downstairs and sit in the couch and stare into space, nothing on my mind, my emotions blank as I'm numbing them out.

I reach over and grab the phone from the table near the couch.

"Hello?" She awnsers.

"Megan, I'm coming back to Washington."

"You, you are?" She asks.

I smile, not feeling any happiness from it.

"Yes yes I am...But you see I need a place to stay and -" She cuts me off.

"Of course you can stay here!" She says.

"How do you know what I was gonna ask?"

"I'm psychic." She says laughing. I don laugh it cause who know what else is in this world. Werewolfs?

We talk for a while longer before we hang up. I put my hair in a ponytail and walk upstairs, throwing my suitcase onto the bed and walking towards my closet. I pack some, breakup clothes, as some people call it. You know like huge sweatshirts and baggy sweatpants.

I set the suitcase near the door and walk I to the office. Joey's computer sits untouched, the keyboard collecting dust. Next to it is a small box, wrapped in a custom wrapping paper, pictures of me and him covering it. I look a the tag just in case.

"Congrats on 1 million subscribers, love you" -Joey

1 million? I open my computer and go to my channel. Sure enough in big numbers 1 million. i cheers me up. Last month I got a YouTube partnership and now one million.

I go on twitter and tweet out a thank you. Then I get out my camera.

"Hey guys!" I fake a smile. "So today I found out I have a million subscribers! I love you guys all so much and can't thank you enough for this amazing opportunity!" I move my camera to my page. "So I guess I'll talk to you later! Peace out, Girl Scout!" I shut off my camera and set it on the table, next to my computer.

I decide to check Joey's channel. No new videos for a whole week.

I decide to open the box that Joey left. I pull off the ribbon and open the box, where a flash drive sits.I pick it up and hold it between my fingers.

As I put it into my computer I begin to guess what it could be.

As the content loads, Joey's face pops up as the starting of the video is loaded. I twirl around in my chair as I wait.

I hear a ding meaning its loaded so I turn back. I click play.

"Hey Lina." Joey smiles and waves to the screen.

"So, congrats on 1 million! I'm so proud of you!" This I the moment my eyes begin to tear up.

"I remember when I got 1 million, it was one of the best days if my life." He takes a deep breath.

"I started out as a teenager, on a channel with my friend, WinterSpringPro we called it, and I would keep thinking that fame wasn't possible for me to achieve. For me to earn. I mean who would like me? Who would like my videos? Who would like worthless me? Who would find me? I would think 'What if it is possible?' 'What if it happened?' But then I would laugh, tell myself it's not possible, but it is. I earned it and you earned it. I know you've had a hard past, but your subscribers will help you move along, as they helped me. They helped me get past rumors. The true ones didn't call me gay, faggot or any other words. They stuck by me at all times. They would support me no matter what. Now they're gonna help you. Help you through your hard times. Help you through your future. When I first saw you, In Whole Foods, there was something about you that caught my eye, something magnificent. Something only I could see. Something I needed. Was it the scars in your wrists that made me want to help you, yes I did see them. But anyways, was it? Was it because I wanted to help you? Was it because of your looks? Was it because of the lost look on your face? Was it because I saw the hurt look in your eye? Or was it because you were the only kind of girl I had ever seen? A special girl. Someone one of a kind. Someone who I knew would be in my future. Your the only one I loved that could say it back to me. To give me back love. That could pass it. Your touch gives it. Your eyes give it. Your heart gives it. Everything about you gives it. You are love. Love runs through your body. Love coats it. And I love your love. Your love would never compare to mine though. My love for you is different. My love is strong, but weak. My love shows, but hides at the same time too. My love overpowers, but is small. But what my love has, no one has. Well maybe you do but I couldn't tell you, you would have to find out. My love has passion. My love protects. My love is forever. You get hurt, they get hurt. They make you cry, I punch the bleeding pulp out of them. Seriously. You kiss me, I kiss you back with the hunger for you. The hunger for your unique love. But one thing that comes to mind is forever. Does forever exist? Or is forever earned. Well I believe it exists and I think it's earned. If we have forever, I would be with you. Just you. And no one can ever change that. That is our future. Now just know that if I ever break you heart, I will never go for someone else. I will never go. I'll stay right there, waiting until you come back, or if you never do. I'll wait. Lina, you are my everything, you are my heart. You cause my love and I can never repay you. Lina, you are my other half, you are my soul. Lina, I love you."

Tears rush down my cheeks, a puddle literally surrounding me. I go and unplug the flash drive from the computer and rush to my room. I set the flash drive in my sock drawer carefully. It already is my life, something true that can never be replaced. But I did learn one thing.

I found the one, even though I can't take him back yet.

A/N: I absolutely loved writing this chapter!!!! Maybe one of my proudest ones I think? Comment what you thought of this chapter...Did ya get the feels?