nurse; mgc

thirty-seven

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also this chapter is hella messy
i was like 99.9% asleep when i wrote it so

Jasmine's POV

The next day, we had no choice but to leave Michael at home and continue on with our regular routines. Mine, sadly, had to be school. I parked in the senior parking lot, next to Calum. He smiled at me through his car window and we met at the hood of our cars. "Hey. How's.. Mikey, ash told me about the.. attempt," Cal spoke softly to me as we walked up to the doors of school. I just nodded, licking my lips. "Uhm.. he's good, we made up, his parents found out about the debt and now he's living with me." I shrugged smiling slightly, even though the matter was nothing to smile about. "Oh. Cool." was all the boy said biting in his pink tinted lips. Stepping onto the curb, our usual route was  interrupted by a certain blonde.

"...hey. Listen I know you're both really mad at me and trust me you have a complete right to, what I said was ignorant and wrong, and I'm sorry." Luke breathed out, Calum just squinted at him, crossing his tan arms infront of his chest. "Listen, saltine," I started, "you should be apologizing to Michael, not us. There's no point in even trying though, you already said your truth."
I glared at him before detaching myself from Calum, and heading to my first class.

I sat down at my unassigned, assignment seat next to the window, the morning sun beating down on the side of my face. My phone buzzed in the hem of my uniform skirt, and I pulled it out, only to see a text from Michael.

From: mikey💕❤️
already missin you princess 🌹😩

I smiled down at my phone like an idiot and began typing a flirty response, but a heavy hand hit my shoulder. "Hey baby," the voice rasped. I glare up at the body, only to see freaking Xavier. Dammit.

"Um... uh.. I.. Hi" I choked out, my heart beginning to beat rapidly, and sweat seeping from my palms. "You good?" He chuckled, his dimples indented deep into his beautiful brown cheeks. But they weren't Michael's.

"We really need to talk Xavier."

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Walking down the crowded hallway at lunch, I realized I spent the whole morning with my anxiety practically eating me. The one thing about my dumbass, is my mind and my body are completely different things-- and sometimes I feel like I'm not in either. My mind can never shut up, the slightest thing will happen and I'll over-analyze everything. Every arched brow, every clenched fist, every whisper, every covered smile. My body on the other side, is just the one that takes the heat.

A part of me feels I shouldn't tell Xavier about Michael. He'll catch on eventually, right? Then another piece of my feels I should end this little fling before it becomes anything it shouldn't. An affair is the last thing I need. Well another one, anyways.

"Jasmine," I heard someone call softly. I whipped my body around to see Xavier walking up to me. "You said we needed to talk?" He asked, a bit more harsh this time. My stomach churned, he'd always been a little aggressive, what if he hurts me. Or Michael?

"Umm... yeah, yeah." I gestured for him to follow me, and together we walked up to the far bench on the senior lawn, that was crawling with freshman. Don't know why. The entire walk Xavier was dragging on about some date he wanted to take me on, but the last thing I was doing was listening.

I sat down across the table from the brown boy, who was building up some nerves. Should i just say it? Just straight up? "I.. I ha.. Xavier, I really like you, that's real shit, I want you to know that." I stumbled over my words. "I like you too, baby" he nodded.

Just lie.
That's wrong.
What are you gonna tell the kid? That he was just side thing; little do you know, you could be the same to him.
I'm only doing this for Michael.
So you still have feelings for him?
That has nothing to do with this-- im not a cheater.
Then why didn't you push calum away the first time..

"Uh.. It's just that.. i'm not really looking to get into a relationship of any kind"

"Oh that's cool, me too. I wasn't planning too-"

"Nah.. nah, I hear you. But graduation is coming up and the last thing I need is any type of.. love-ey.. relationship. You understand right?" I set my hands down infront of him.

"So.. what are you saying?" He spoke slowly, his brown eyes setting deep and dark. "I'm saying that we should stop.. hooking up..?" I answered, more unsure than he probably was. "We've hooked up once." Xavier spat. "You're not just a booty call to me, Jasmine. I actually like you. What changed? You were all over me on-- it's that fairy cracker isn't it?" He growled.

"Well, his name is Michael, and no. This has nothing to do with him, and everything to do with--" Xavier stood up, suddenly stomping towards me. My first instinct was to move away from him, which I did. But he just got closer, breathing heavier, and heavier.

"Do you have a boyfriend Jasmine? Did you lie to me?" He growled through gritted teeth. I felt small under him, walking backwards with my back hunched over and my arms covering all my vital organs.

"N-No." I stuttered, not making a believable point. His jaw set visibly, I could head his teeth grinding against each other. He glared at me, before turning on his heel abruptly, raging away from me.