Hello instead of Goodbye (Ouran Host Club Fanfic)

Not alone

I was wrapped up in the towel Haruhi had given me, and was being held by Mori senpai as we headed to a nearby beach house that Kyoya owned. Renge deeming that my death attempt was too sorrowful for her had gone back into the city to get some things to cheery herself up. Leaving me and the host club alone.

That was good I guess, since I rather not talk about Mei to her, while she seemed like a nice girl, I didn't know her well enough. After all I had just met the girl a couple days ago and she seemed rather loony.

Mori senpai set me down on a chair in the living room of the house and everyone crowded around me. Their eyes were concerned and Honey senpai was even crying a little.

"Mi-chan. Why did you try to die?" Honey senpai asked before Tamaki quickly slapped a hand over his mouth. Annoyed by this Honey senpai bit Tamaki's hand which seemed to lighten the mood as the twins began to laugh at him. I giggled but stopped as soon as I saw Kyoya's angry expression.

Was he mad that I had tried to kill myself? The only thing he would lose if I was dead would be the marriage deal between our families. Maybe that was it.

"You could have drowned if it wasn't for Mori senpai saving you. Miya what were you thinking? Just because your sister told you off doesn't give you an excuse to die. That's idiotic of you." Kyoya said making me get off my chair, staring down Kyoya I walked towards him. If he knew me when I was younger, then he should have known how much Mei meant to me. He should have know she was my world, and without her he should have known that I wouldn't want to live.

Angry, I was angry at him. Angry that he was calling me idiotic, angry that he didn't understand that I was hurt, angry that even with his huge information network that he didn't even realize that I lived separately from my sister. Hurt that even though he was very perceptive he couldn't see the hatred my grandmother had for me. Hurt that I was just a means of merit for him. I didn't like to be used, but once again I had no choice. Kyoya was no different than my grandmother, both were using me for their own gain.

I slapped him. I slapped the Shadow King and then I ran out of the house.

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"Kyoya's not mad that you hit him." I turned around at the deep voice, and sighed with relief that it was just Mori senpai. I had headed back to the beach and had been sitting down on the sand just watching the ocean. Out of all the hosts, I was glad that it was Mori who had come to talk to me. Haruhi would no doubt want me to explain myself and the other hosts would have prodded me and annoyed me to explain as well. With Mori senapi, I didn't have to force myself to say anything.

"Mmm." I mumbled before turning back to the ocean. He sat down beside me and we watched the ocean together. The sounds of the waves crashing and the occasional bird squawking were the only sounds I heard as he sat with me for the next hour. We met each others gaze a few times but other than that we were in complete silence.

During our silence Mori senpai reached for a near by stick and began drawing stuff in the sand. It seemed like something Honey senpai would do if he was bored, so it struck me as odd that the more mature one would resort to childish behaviour that Honey senpai was known for. It wasn't until he nudged me with his elbow to look at what he had drawn that I realized that it wasn't a drawing at all. He had written words in the sand.

You don't want to talk? I mouthed what he had written before looking at him and shook my head 'no' as a response. Mori senpai wiped away his words and began writing again.

Talk, I'll listen. It was more of a demand rather than a suggestion, even if he hadn't said it I knew that's what he had implied. I shook my head no before he swiftly swiped his words away yet again and scribbled something else in the sand.

I'll tell Tamaki that your pregnant with Kyoya's baby. I raised and eyebrow at him and he looked at me with a smug smile on his face. Tamaki would hassle me to no end about that if Mori senpai did that. And the fact that Mori senpai had told him instead of the twins would just make it much believable. I scowled before I wiped away his words with the stoke of my hand.

"You win. I'll talk to you just, keep what I say between you and me alright?" Mori senpai nodded his head.

"Ah." he responded before I hugged my knees to my chest and continued to stare at the ocean as I talked.

"My sister and I don't live together. She's the one who will be inheriting the family business, she's the one that my grandmother loves. I'm nothing but my father's mistresses daughter." I sighed before I felt Mori senpai patting my head. It was oddly comforting and I leaned into his hand before I continued to speak. "If I hadn't been born then maybe Mei would have another sibling who could protect her better. All I ever did was leave her and she hates me because of it." I turned to look at Mori senpai. He had his expressionless face on and yet his eyes were full of sorrow. "Mei was my reason for living all these years especially after our parent's died. Without Mei I'm all alone and if Mei hates me... there really is no point in living." The patting stopped and instead I was pulled into Mori senpai's chest for a hug.

"Mori senpai?" I questioned his actions and tried to pull away but his gripped was strong and he wouldn't budge.

"Your not alone. You have me... and the rest of the host club." the comforting aura around him, I felt is yet again and hesitantly I lifted my arms so that I was returning the hug. I felt Mori senpai hug me tighter before we heard a cough coming from behind us. We split apart and turned to see Hikaru and Karou standing behind us with smug smiles on their faces.

"Tono sent us to find you two." Karou said before his smile grew wide. Hikaru spoke up finishing Karou's sentence.

"We just thought you'd be talking not hugging."

The twins finding us hugging, there was no doubt that they would find some way to twist this into something troublesome. I had enough problems to deal with already, I didn't need the twins adding more to my plate.

"What do you guys want?" I asked making the twins grin before they hugged each other.

"Ah Hikaru, we should keep this a secret, who knows what Kyoya will do if he found out."

"But Karou, all we want is to visit Miya's house." That was it? That was all they wanted.

"Alright. You can visit." They smiled and I instantly regretted saying yes. Something told me that I was missing something. In between the lines of there request there had to be an ulterior motive.

"Great the host club will be over tomorrow!" I sighed. There it was, if they wanted to check up on me all they had to do was say so.

A/N: I'm back! I hope this was enjoyable for you all to read. And sorry for the wait but school comes first! So the host club will be checking up on Miya in the next chapter. Which means that they all will have to go to her house! What do you think will happen? Thanks for reading