My heart breaks when he says those words. Of course I knew I broke his heart, but it's one thing to know and another to hear him say it.
I guess he could see my soul break in that moment, because his eyes softened
"Em I didn't mean it like tha-" he starts but the tears already fell.
"No Shawn I know what you meant and you meant exactly that." I say as he gulps down the urge to say something. "I know I hurt you," I say voice cracking "and I know, I know I can never do anything to take that pain away," I wipe my eyes frustrated with myself, I let out a dry laugh, "hell Shawn, if there was I would've done it in a heartbeat!"
He steps forward but soon realizing something and stepping back.
My heart drops.
"Emily, this-" he motions between us. "Whatever the fuck we call 'us'" he air quotes 'us' "isn't healthy for me, for you." He takes a minute debating if he should say what he's about to. "Emily," my full name I know where this is going. "It's over." Ouch "heck it never even started." He turns and walks back inside closing the door behind him infront of me.
I'm greeted with the brown polished wood, and the realizing heartbreaking thoughts.
That's it, it's done, over, or as he said 'never even started.'
(Shawn's pov)
As soon as the door closes, a barrier between her and me, I break.
My back slides down the door, hands run over face and through my hair tugging at the ends.
I hear her, all the way on the other side. I hear her barely, faintly but still audible. I hear her, I hear her cry. Even though I can't see her I know she's covering her mouth to try and stifle the sobs but they can't be. I see an image in my head I can't bear. An image of her eyes filled with tears the hurt on her face.
It hurts. Everything hurts. Tears rush down my cheeks my throat feels raw as if I've been screaming, my head pounds because of all the things I've been thinking of.
She's crying, feeling the same way as I am she's breaking, she is broken and on the other side of the door there's me the same way as her.
--------------- Just a filler but summer starts in a couple days so be ready for a lot more updates!❤
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