Act like you love me

The subject of regret:chapter 1

I look out my car window staring off into my drive way watching the rain drops race each other down the glass.

It rains all the time here in Oregon which is dreadful but I'm used to it now. Oregon isn't that much different from Canada it's cold here to and it does snow in the winter like it did back home in Canada. But, Just because Oregon is similar to back home doesn't mean I don't miss it.

I miss everything about Canada the smell, the hockey games I would go to up in Toronto, the familiar faces my mom and dad and most of all my best friend Shawn. He was the best thing I had I regret leaving him but, I had to. If I wanted him to succeed I had to go I was a worthless distraction.

Moving on from the painful subject of regret. Thinking about him to much is painful I can feel my throat already  burning and my head aching from thinking to hard.

But, I do need to be thinking about Shawn knowing when I back out of this drive way I will be driving to Portland then taking a plane to Canada. I know for a fact I will see him and I'm lost for words it's almost been a year. Could he of forgotten me, could he forgotten all of our memories? I hope he didn't but I wish he would cause then I could try to move on.

I get out of my thoughts and back out of the drive way. The rain was coming down harder now and made tiny little thuds against my cars roof.

To mute the sound of the rain I turn on the radio and of course the first song to play is "Memories." By Shawn Mendes my one and only best friend.

I can't help but crank the radio all the way up hearing is voice makes me feel like I'm back in his arms again. I can already smell the scent of his cologne filling my nose. The only problem I have about hearing Shawn sing is the fact that it's like I'm opening a wound called the subject of regret. Filling my mind with the fact that I never should of left Shawn like that.

I shouldn't of left....

So BTW this book will have a lot of things switched from the time Shawns songs were released to why he wrote them stuff like that.this isn't based off anything a lot of it is different from the real thing please keep that in mind. Also I never edit anything so there might be mistakes sorry thanks for reading!!!

       -leah💜