biased || choi youngjae

feelings

/ Jackson P.O.V \

In the midst of the upsetting commotion with Georgia, and an unwell Kay, I have been figuring out how to dissolve my unnecessary feelings. Within the past, I have been known for holding onto feelings for a very long time. For example, the Mark thing that I've had for the entirety of our music career. I thought having feelings for Georgia would be a good thing, to help me move on from Mark, but it turned out, that no one will reciprocate my feelings.

I take my pillow with me into Jinyoung's room to sleep in the bed with him because I've been struggling to sleep. He doesn't mind, and he moves over to give me space. I try to get comfortable but there's so much in my head that it's still hard to sleep. I mumble to myself, which causes Jinyoung to turn around to me and stare at me.

"Why are you so pitiful today?" I hear him ask. I frown at him but then I shrug, he tends to know exactly what I'm thinking so I let him figure it out himself. "You don't know what to do with yourself? Go talk to whoever you need to talk to, it's better to talk than to keep it all to yourself, let it out."

"Yeah, but what do I say, what words?" I let out a deflated sigh and let Jinyoung stroke my head in comfort. "What if I say the wrong words?"

"You won't," he tells me. I don't believe him, but I wouldn't go against him in an argument ever. "Now, go. You won't sleep now anyway, you've been like this for the whole week."

I nod my head and get out of the bed, I leave my pillow there because I will most likely end up there later when I want to sleep again. I make my way to the hospital to talk to who I need to talk to the most, the source of my feelings, Georgia.

When I arrive at the hospital, I head straight to the in-hospital cafe thing to get myself a caffeinated drink to wake myself up before I talk to her. It'll give me some time to think about what I have to say to her and how I'm supposed to get her to talk to me alone without her thinking that it's weird, since she knows about my feelings.

Just as I open the door I hear a familiar laugh, I can tell who's it is, since it's literally iconic. So I hide myself behind something so that he can't see me. I quickly peak out from the wall that I'm hidden behind to see Youngjae and Georgia sitting together in the corner of the cafe. I feel my heart almost shatter into pieces and I feel like every single thing in my life that made me happy suddenly went dark and evil. I feel so much pain in my whole body, as I watch one of my best friends and the girl that my feelings are directed at, kissing.

I decide against getting a drink, and I go outside for some fresh air to clear my brain. I stand outside the hospital for a small while, a mask covering my face so that no fans see me.