biased || choi youngjae

complicated

Jackson P.O.V.

"I don't have any time to date anyway," I breath out the words, my head against my pillow on Jinyoung's bed once again. It's starting to feel like a counseling session whenever I'm in this room. "I mean, when I liked Mark, it made sense because I see him all the time anyway, so it wouldn't even have been hard to start dating because it would be the same but better."

"And now you like someone outside of the group, and it's complicated," Jinyoung asks, his head is probably still resting on his hand and his elbow keeps it lifted up on the bed - that's how he was positioned when I looked last, but now all I see is the ceiling.

"That's not the only complicated thing, she's with someone else now, so I have 0 chance to be with her, so what do I do? Am I supposed to talk to her still, tell her that I still have feelings for her but I am trying to get rid of them so that we can be really close friends instead because I would really like that if that's as much as I can get," I turn to look at Jinyoung - and yes, i was right, he is in that same position. He shakes his head at me, probably at how pathetic I sound.

"Do you think I know about relationships? My last one ended when 5 people were added into our group," I look at him disinterested in his problems, waiting for him to give me some advice anyway. "Wow you really are affected by this, are you sure you're Jackson? What have you done to the real Jackson Wang?"

"Jinyoung..." I frown at him and he turns his expression into a serious one to actual give me advice for this problem.

"Just talk, like I said, talking is the best way to figure things out and explain things, and apologize. Apologies make everything okay!"

I jump out of the bed as I hear the front door open and the familiar laughter follow afterwards - they're here, not at the hospital. I run out to the living room to question them instantly. I hear Jinyoung mumble something as I leave but I don't catch it.

"Why are you guys here? Is Kay awake yet?" I ask Youngjae and Georgia as they are taking their shoes off at the front door.

"I missed coco, and no she isn't- Wait, didn't you say you had individual schedule? Why are you here?" Youngjae questions me, I widen my eyes because I completely forgot that I told Youngjae that Jinyoung and I had individual schedule because we just wanted to go home and sleep - well I wanted to get away from Youngjae and Georgia for a while, but Jinyoung joined in.

"It uh, finished so I'm back - and so is Jinyoung," I say sheepishly, hoping that they don't catch on to my white lie. I glance at Georgia for the first time since she entered the dorm - I had been trying not to look - and I can really tell that she's stressed out, tired and upset just from how she looks. I'm sure Youngjae being there for her is helping her a lot though - I'm not even going to try denying my jealousy, even though I should.

"Okay, we're going to watch the TV for a bit, need to relax because it's been a stressful day," Youngjae explains, setting up the TV to watch a movie. I nod my head and head back into Jinyoung's room to figure out my plan - and tell Jinyoung that those two are here.

Hopefully Youngjae will go to sleep before Gee and I'll be able to talk to her, that's my plan. I'll ask her to talk to me in private and we'll go to her place and we'll take coco too. I'll explain that I feel really bad for having feelings for her, I'll say that we wouldn't have been able to be together anyway because I don't have enough time for a girlfriend so it's better this way, and then finally; I'll ask her if we can still be really close friends, and not let the feelings get in the way of our friendship - I mean, I am the first member she met, so that has to count towards something, right?