Move with me
That was the first words that slipped out of Ashtons mouth the moment we were alone. It hit me like a truck. I hadn't spoken a word since he told me, and I think he picked up on my worry. The truth was, I didn't think I could move to London. For the first time in my life, I have a family. I can't lose that over a boy in a band who...Who might leave me for late night strippers and useless drugs
I sighed. I'm not saying Ashton -Or any of the boys- Will turn out like that, but I know he won't want to be in a committed relationship once he's bigger. He'll be touring once that album is out, and I won't have money to go with them -Heck, I haven't even finished school.
What about my dreams? My future? How am I meant to study as a nurse when I'm stuck in London, by myself, absolute no experiences with bartendency or anything little like that which could get me a part time job, and no one to help me through it? He knows I don't work well by myself, and with a boyfriend always away on tour, playing for thousands everynight, how do I know he won't hook up with the blonde girl in the front row?
I don't.
I just don't think I can go. I don't think I want to go.
"When are you going?" Was all I replied with, 30 minutes after he said the first statement. I was sitting against the bed head, my legs tucked under my arms, and he was sitting on the edge of the bed, no shirt on, his elbows resting on his knees, and his face in his hands. It was about seven at night, and I suppose I'd be sleeping over tonight.
"You don't want to go, do you?" He said softly, looking up at me.
"When are you going?" I repeated, swallowing back my sobs.
"Move with me" He challenged. My eyes softened as his voice strained and his tired eyes looked at me. He knew I wasn't going to reply so he sighed and continued, "I don't know. Cal just called and told me, then he was gonna ring Michael and tell him," His voice was husky, and I knew I had ruined the excitement for him. I didn't mean to. I wanted him to be happy. But I just couldn't wrap my head around this.
"I'm sorry," I said quietly, "I want you to be happy, I'm happy for you I just..."
"I can't not go Gracie," He mumbled, crawling over to me, and kneeling infront of me. A few tears spilled out at his nickname, "But I can't let you go either,"
"I have a family here now, Ash. I can't trade that in. It's too important to me" I told him. He stayed silent, "I haven't even finished school yet. I can't go to London without a completed school certicate. I don't even have any practical skills to go with while I finish year 12 -If I finish year 12"
"I don't want to go without you," He mumbled, "I can't"
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Later that night, the boys joined Ashton and I at his place, and so did the girls. I suppose they wanted to talk about the move, but I really didn't want to think about it anymore. I just got Ashton back, and now he's getting ripped out of my grip again.
"Are we gonna talk about the elephant in the air or are we just gonna sit here listening to Ashton breathe heavily" It was true. They had all arrived about ten minutes ago, and none of us had said a word to each other.
Also, Ashton did breathe extra loudly and it was really weird.
"What's there to talk about?" Jordan asked, "You guys are moving! That's incredible!" She exclaimed, "Shouldn't we be partying or something?"
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Let Me Be the One to Save You
Fanfiction"What do you want?" I glared at the blonde boy. "To see if you're okay" He mumbled, looking straight into my eyes. They were full of sorrow and guilt, Like he was actually sad he stopped. It made me even more angry. He broke our promise. "I'm fine...
