Drowning // a sam pottorff fanfiction

Chapter 9

All I remember doing after seeing his face is saying Bye

I ran out the door tears streaming down my face why did I think for a second that he was hinting on me maybe he was but now Maggie's gonna be all over him

I thought my life was bad enough but this over topped it

I want to die more and more everyday but it's different

I ended running to a bench about a mile away

I plopped down and let out everything

I hate life

I would love to die like usual

Sobbing my sorrows away

That's all I did

It was a buzy road

I heard my name from far away

I really could care less about what Maggie thinks

I hate her

For some reason it just hit me

This is why I don't make friends or go out now there's this guy that I hate and a girl and there gonna probably date in the future and I want nothing to do with them

I swear I don't want to talk to anyone not even Fucking saddie even tho I feel like I bond with her more then Maggie I hate everything just like I used to when I lived with my dad

There's a figure running but I turn my head with my tears running down my face like Niagara Falls

I can't believe I thought I liked you

I feel a tap on my shoulder

H: go away I hate you

S: hate me all you want but I'm going no where I didn't do anything

H: you didn't have to pretend to be nice to me and give me your number if you liked Maggie

S: Haley were not dating we're friends I don't even like her

H: I'm sure your friends with every girl in a coffee shop I scoffed

S: she was fucking crying in there so I went over to her made her laugh and she wanted me to give her my number I could tell she liked me but I didn't I was just being nice

H: look sam don't talk to me please

S: feisty

H: shut up im just done with people ok I'm sure she's gonna love to have you date her she keeps bragging about you she made it seem like you like each other and that your gonna date

S: we are not gonna date I don't like her she's probably crazy

H: probably

S: I don't like her I promise babe

H: she likes you a lot
I paused noticing he called me babe I tried to not smile but it probably showed

S: oh
I could tell he started to smile

H: I like you a lot...

I pause and begin to cry more and more by the seconds passing

Every breath I take

There's a lump in my throat I want to throw up

S: I like you too please don't cry every since I've laid eyes on you I've liked you

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H: and that's why I'm depressed all the time in my lousy life

Why did I tell him everything

Good going Haley

Smart move

S: I'm here your safe with me

He puts his warm arm around my shoulder I snuggle agents his chest in the cool California breeze

H: Maggie might show up

S: so what

H: I can't hang out with her for some reason I hate her

S: you should hate her I don't blame you she's crazy

H: yep

I actually start to smile

I hate Maggie but Sam is amazing he's the boy of my dreams literally I mean he sounds just like him I don't know how I dreamed about him

I let him know everything and he listens well

S: your beautiful stay beautiful for me ok

H: I can't make promises

S: all you have to do is be in my life please

H: deal

I hug on to him he's so warm but his muscles are there I feel protected

He looks into my green eyes I focus on him every little detail I try to focus on

He begins to lean in

Wait what do I do

Is he trying to kiss me......

I lean in and I feel the sparks fly as he plants a kiss on my lips

He's a magical Boy

I hear foot steps but I ignore them

But I start to hear crying but it sounds fake

M: kill your self Haley I Fucking hate you and as for you sam

Don't talk to me

I let go of the kiss and begin looking at Maggie running away

She told me to kill myself this is why she's not a friend

H: wow I'm sorry

I got up and ran to Maggie's house

I need my car

Fuck her

Fuck life

But sam

I like him

A lot.