Dear Diary (Luke Brooks)

Chapter 1

Dear Diary,

Today was pretty depressing.

It started with reading anonymus comments like "OMG! You're so ugly" and "Just finally go and kill yourself!" on my tumblr. I know they are just stuid strangers who don't even know me but it still hurts.One of my teachers noticed my mood and wanted to speak to me after school. I just nodded and went to lunch.

I walked to the toilets, sat down, took a deep breathe and cought myself thinking about cutting again. I really wanted to be strong and this one time it actually worked.

After School I met my teacher in the classroom. She asked me what was wrong. I just looked down and stuttered, nearly whispering: "I-i-i dunno, nothing, I guess." "I can see it in your eyes. You know, you can tell me everything, right?" I nodded. "I'll help you through it! You're a nice girl and you deserve better!" I didn't know what to say and stayed silent. "Think about it and you can talk to me again or write me a letter." I nodded once again. She smiled and hugged me. I really like her.

"Do you want to join my drama club in school? There are also people from other schools and a few boys, too! Maybe you'll find some friends there and get more confident!" She smilied nicely. I had done a lot of acting when I was younger and it always made me happy so I said I would join the club.

Laying in bed in the evening I thought about it.

You're so silly! Now you have to do something with those people and especially boys! Omg noo! They'll hate you! How can you be so stupid?

The voices inside my head made me feel really uncomfortable and insecure about myself. I got up and walked over to watch myself in the mirror. I felt so ugly. Omg those people are really going to hate me!

The first lesson is going to be tomorrow after school.

I just hope everything will go well! 

Thanks for listening!

Kisses xx

-Minzy