First letter,
Dear: Thomas
I never thought it'd end this way.
I tried and I thought I had truly forgotten about you but so much as the mere mention of your name tightens my chest and kills me.
I never thought a scar could cut this deep.
I tried and thought it had healed after I tried to stitched it back so many times but it still bleeds even now.
I never thought it'd hurt this much.
I tried and thought I was happy moving forward but yet I'm still reminiscing about the past wrongs.
I never thought you'd leave...
But you did.
I let you go, like I let go of a balloon and let it float to the sky, yet I'm still holding onto the string. I thought I was done suffering, yet inside I'm dying.
I never thought I'd hate someone as much as I hate you.
Just the mention of your name brings me agony, I don't want to hear it, cause I don't want to remember and is that wrong? You've moved on so why can't I? Why do I still tremble and fall? Am I weak? Do you hate me because of that?
I think I need help, I want nothing to do with you, the pain I bear because of you, living with the memories of being with you, I can't stand it. I don't like it and yet why do I miss you so badly? Answer me and let my soul rest in peace under the grave of my sins.
-Clarie (from the book wasteland, story before wasteland is still left untold)
Ps. The picture is an extract from the book Book girl and the captive fool
Thanks to greenab for pointing out this part of the book to me in lit :)
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My life in one book ❤ It was here that I met you~ 🌸🍦
AcakThe title says it all ^.^ This is a book about me and my life and yes all of it is about my life (note names have been changed to protect privacy) I apologize in advance for the dark letters I wrote >.< Enjoy!
