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Chapter Four| Dirty Little Secrets

Janine's POV

At the start of every New Year I got a little bit emotional. I mean, who wouldn't? I love my family, but I couldn't stop thinking about what I left behind. When I was 16, I fell madly in love with a guy named Aiden Coleman. He was my everything and more. I got pregnant with our first child at the age of 16 and that changed my entire life. Aiden and I decided to get married shortly after my 18th birthday. Soon after our baby turned one, we were expecting another. We were stupid in love and contraception just wasn't as important to us as it should have been. I loved my children dearly and I was extremely happy with Aiden. Unfortunately, things started to get rough when I was 21 and pregnant with our third child. Aiden and I were struggling a little as he tried to start up his own business. Things were caving in on me and I broke under the pressure. 

Life was difficult being 21 years old with three children. No doubt did I love Aiden, Judith, Judah, and Audri, but I was too young to be trapped in a life like that. Yes, it was selfish of me to have left them when Audri was 1 because I couldn't handle it. I regretted doing that so much especially since at the time of my leave, I was once again pregnant. No one knew and I didn't want to hurt my family anymore. I wasn't happy so I ran off to pursue my dreams in the music business. I gave birth to Auriella after I met David, whom she believes is her father.

David and I got together when I was three months and since we had sex before then it was easy to lie and say that the baby was his. I was pathetic and a horrible person for not only doing that to him, but also to Aiden. It pained me every single day throughout the pregnancy and even after her birth. As Auriella grew up, I cried everyday in the bathroom because she loved David so much, she was a daddy's girl even though he had no blood relation to her. I hated myself for creating this big lie, but I had to live with it until I found the courage to tell them. Call me a coward because I was afraid to let the truth see the light. If Aiden came around then it would have been easy to see because Auriella looked like a mixture between him and I. David was blind thinking that she looked like him, but I fed into it and let him believe that until I was bit in the ass and had to come clean.

Audri's POV

Normally I slept in on Saturday mornings, but Justin had something planned. He wouldn't tell me, but I was to dress in some old casual clothes. We had been hanging out everyday after work. Although I kept telling myself that all I wanted was friendship, everyday that I spent with him he seemed to capture my attention even more. He was not the asshole that the media portrayed him as.

I rushed to get ready because Justin texted me saying that he was coming over for breakfast before we left. I hurried downstairs to start making breakfast before he arrived, I needed to make a good impression that I could cook. When I glanced at the clock my heart started to pound a little faster. Oh Shit. I had an hour and a half. As soon as I was about to start on the pancake mix, the doorbell rang. I practically ran to the door and although Justin was early, I didn't hesitate to let him in.

"Good Morning beautiful," Justin greeted me with a warm hug. His hugs were to die for because it's as if he holds onto you like his life depends on it. It was comforting and sweet.

"Morning," I replied shyly, tucking hair behind my left ear that was already there in the first place. He gave me a thousand butterflies in my stomach. "You're early," I added.

"I figured I'd help you out with breakfast," he offered with a lopsided smile, which I thought was so cute because he has this dimple that becomes prominent.

"Sounds like fun," I smiled like an idiot. Why does he have this affect on me?

I led him to the kitchen so we could get started. I already had the ingredients for the pancakes ready. We poured all of the ingredients into the bowl that sat on the counter. I turned the mixer on and batter flew all over the place. Smooth. Justin bursted into laughter as he started to mix the eggs while I cleaned up the mess I made.