Wonderland ~ Kavi

5~ I'M just a kid

~ What do you guys think? Please let me know also what I am going to mention in this chapter is something that I have IRL and I wanted to add it into the story to try and get people more aware of it as Its not a nice disability to have as there is a big struggle with it but I hope you guys will be understanding about it  also message me if you want me to go more into detail about it :) ~ 

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(gonna do POV for a while)

Kirstin POV ~ 

"I don't quite get it" looking at the question paper for the tenth time as Avi breathed before he started to read the question again.

"Look its ratio do you know what ratio is?" he asked me as I sat there my mind was blank and I couldn't form any words as all the words and numbers just jumbled, my heart began to race as I didn't know what the answer was or how to figure it out as I tried to read over the question again still nothing came into my head, what I didn't realize was that tears started to run down my cheeks as Avi noticed this, putting down his pen he gently rubbed my shoulder.

"Hey it's ok we can go over it again-"

"No because I still won't get it then no matter how many times you explain it I still won't get it!" I cried even harder now as I began to shake, as a tight feeling in my chest.

"Kirstin why don't we call it a day and leave it there...also why are you stressing out so much this stuff is like easy"

"Says you, you understand it your brain can comprehend numbers and solve them easily with me.....it's like my head doesn't know where to start first and all the numbers just look like one big mess and then I don't know how to fit them together and I just DON'T KNOW!" I screamed at Avi was my head hurt the amount of time teachers told me that I should already know this but I don't and they called me lazy, not trying hard enough but it made me feel worthless and not wanted Me, thinking about this made me start to cry again as I got up from the chair as Avi went to grab my arm.

"Kirst wait-"

"No Avi! You will never understand...just leave!" I shouted as Avi pulled me towards him, "Let me go!"

He dragged me so that I was trapped in his arms as he squeezed me, "Avi I can't breathe! I'm sorry"

Avi let me go as he had a stupid smirk on his face, which was kinda cute...wait did I just say that? What is wrong with me? I hope this won't be some cliche relationship.

"Kirstin please tell me what does go through your head when you see a math question." he looked at me his green eyes looked into mine it was like getting lost in a forest.

"Well it's kinda a long story.." I started talking "since I was little I never really understood numbers like I can count to 1 - 100 perfectly fine but the minute you ask me to add, multiply, divide or subtract the numbers my mind kinda goes into a panic because I can't figure out how to like the numbers get jumbled..I mean I can do simple adding and subtracting but that sometimes gets confusing, I don't even know my multiplication tables.....I am in high school Avi even younger kids are smarter than me!"

He looked at me gently rubbing a comforting hand on my shoulder. "How did you find out about it?"

"When I was younger my teachers said that I was lazy and that I didn't want to do the work, so my mum being a good mum decided to see for herself if I was really being lazy but when she saw that I was struggling she took me to get a test done and it said that I have a numerical learning disorder called Dyscalculia."

There was a silence... it started to worry me so I looked at Avi as his face held no emotion, tears started to fill my eyes as I just told him something that I never tell anyone because I get made fun off and he's just Lifeless.

"Avi?"

"That's horrible" he spoke as my chest still felt tight as my vision was now blurred as the tears fell from my eyes.

"Kirst- that must be horrible I'm sorry I would've known I wouldn't of been so hard on you" he said as he held me in a tight hug, It was nice...and I felt cared about when he pulled away Avi leaned down and kissed my cheek.

Then

Time

Froze.

He kissed me...on the cheek, we both looked at each other with shocked expressions as Avi stumbled back as he quickly shoved his things in his bag as he kept muttering sorry as he left, while I was still in shock.

I ran to get my phone quickly calling the first person I knew,

"Mitch we got a problem." 

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"So he just kissed you?"

"No not just kissed he hugged me then leaned in and then kissed me on the cheek what does this mean?"

"Seems like good boy want's a taste of the bad life.." Mitch said as he was sat on my bed.

"Oh yea because that would go down perfectly with his family...."

"Sure it will come on you're losing your bad girl streak where is the Kirstin that never gave a shit about anything, or anyone?"

"I'm still here just I don't know-"

"Girl we need some time to get you back." Mitch said as he smiled and when he gave me that smile it was never good.

But who said I was good in the first place?