Twitched Love

Tears and Toby

Toby's POV
My sister didn't deserve to die. She shouldn't have. She actually had a bright goddamn future to look forward to. A future that I could have only dreamed about. Maybe if I had died in that car crash instead of her, my sister would be able to pursue her life, and she wouldn't have to keep worrying all the time if her little freak of a brother was okay.

Tears trickled down my face. I didn't even have time to wipe them away before a figure entered my room. Ugh, seriously can't people just leave me alone?

"Why are you always crying?" a familiar voice said to me.

"Why are you always so nosey?" I retorted, pulling my sleeves over my hands and wiping the tears out of my eyes.

Then I felt hands on my wrists as they stared at me. It was Jeff.

"Seriously, what's wrong?" he questioned me.

"Everyone has a past Jeff. Everyone has regrets and no matter how hard we try to forget about them, you can't, and there are some parts of you that just don't want to forget. I can't keep living like this. Memories haunting me, flashbacks that turn into nightmares, and living like a monster. I don't understand why I had to be born like this. I don't understand why this had to be who I am. I don't love who I am Jeff."

He looked at me. Nothing but silence came out of his mouth. He just looked at me without any expression. That's what I liked about Jeff, he won't pity you, no matter how hard you try to get him to.

After what felt like forever, he pulled me into an embrace. I was shocked, and my body was stiff and rigid all over.

I wrapped my arms around him and started to bawl. Not just a regular cry, but an ugly one. It was a cry that expressed all the pain inside, the pain that's been built up for so many years.

Jeff didn't let go of me. He hugged me like he never wanted to let go of me and I didn't want him to either. I never knew how good it felt to let everything go, to know that you weren't alone although you were surrounded by people.

And let me tell you. I was a fucking emotional mess.

So emotional...

that I kissed him.

He didn't pull away. His lips fell into motion with mine. His lips were rough, but they were beyond amazing. It was a short and sweet kiss, but at the same time passionate and demanding.

When we broke apart, we were both panting. My heart was jumping out of my chest. We stared at each other again, too much in shock of what we just did.

Jeff immediately stood up and his back was faced to me.

"Jeff I-"

But I didn't get to finish what I was going to say, because he rushed out of the room. Not a word passed between us. The spark that I felt with him was no longer here, all that was left was once again the cold feeling of loneliness.

I messed up big time. It was hard to keep a friendship and I had to go and mess everything up. I know I shouldn't have kissed him. I didn't know what I was thinking. I was just so overwhelmed with feelings and Jeff pushed me off the edge with just one hug.

But I couldn't stop thinking about that kiss.

He didn't pull away...

Does that mean something?

I mean, it meant something to me. It was my first kiss. But I never imagined my first kiss to end up with someone running away.

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Masky's POV

I saw Jeff run out of Toby's room and out the door of the mansion. Curiosity got the best of me, so I decided to follow him.

He was running extremely fast, like he was trying to get away from something. I was going to call out to him, but I got a feeling that I shouldn't, so I hid in the bushes off to the side from where he abruptly stopped.

He let out a frustrated scream. It was so loud and raw that it hurt my own ears. He fell onto his knees, letting out more gruesome shouts.

"I can't do this to him ! I can't do this to both of them!" Jeff shouted at the trees, at the sky, at himself.

Him? He's talking about Toby, right? But who would the other person be?

Thoughts wondered endlessly through my head. New thoughts would be created every second that ticked by and old thoughts would surface again.

I was completely lost in my thoughts, but the words that he said next, snapped me out of them so hard that it almost physically hurt.

"But...I love who you are Toby. I love you so goddamn much." He said as if Toby were right in front of him.

My mouth was agape and I stumbled back, trying to get some support from the trunk of a tree. But my foot stepped on a twig and it made a sound, triggering Jeff into alertness.

He looked directly in my direction, but I don't think he realized who it was in the bushes. He stared off towards here for a few more seconds until he finally ran away. But he didn't run towards the mansion, he ran in the exact opposite direction.

I got up quickly as well and watched as he got smaller and smaller, and finally disappeared completely into the fog. But this time, I didn't follow him.

I also ran, but towards the mansion, knowing that I shouldn't have heard what I had.

I was filled with a mix of emotions: shock, curiosity, confusion, and anger.

I didn't know what to do with these emotions. I didn't know what to think of Jeff. I didn't know anything. It's as if Jeff's words were able to knock all the common sense and reasoning out of me. I wasn't even able to think straight.

So all I could do was sit at a tree that was nearby to the mansion and put my head in my hands as one thought lingered in my mind:

Should I tell Toby?

A/N: Hey guys! Another chapter. Yay! And I just wanted to thank you guys for all the reads and comments! They make me smile. Thanks again! Also I wanted to complain about how many time I accidentally deleted this whole chapter and had to rewrite it over again. Too many times. Haha hope you guys enjoyed!