Snippets of Color

absence

what am I missing, darling?
I should know every move
every thought and action
but I'm clueless now
everything about you
is unpredictable
and it scares me
I don't know what to expect
I'm afraid I'll lose you for good

what am I missing from you?
frozen mornings and your warm hands
hot evenings and the wind on my skin
where have those days gone?
why must every good thing
rest in the days gone by?
there's nothing between us anymore
I yearn for the love we once had
I still don't know where it went

(were you ever really in love with me?)

thinking about you hurts
all I want to hear is your voice
I want to feel your touch
though I know those times are gone
it has all changed
you were my single star in the sky
but I looked away and lost you
I let go of your hand
and you walked away

I can't stop thinking about you
even though the memory of you is sour
and my heart clenches painfully
when you creep into my mind
it's cold where you used to be
but you're not here to fill its place
everything is different now
I'm ashamed to say I miss you
because I know you don't miss me

(you were the only one I ever loved)

I'd do anything to have you back
I'm sorry for what I did
even though I don't know what it is
what did I do?
tell me what I did
and I'll change it all
we can start this over
can't you see that?
I'll do anything for you

I need you back
you were everything to me
and I can't stand to be alone
you were the best thing
that has ever happened to me
I know why my body aches
and my heart is breaking
I know what I'm missing now
I'm missing you

(I still love you, even though you destroyed me)