Taehyung vs V

Chapter 4

I was shopping till’ it was 3 in the afternoon. I bought new clothes, some cosmetics… well- just all ‘girly’ stuffs. I was not really aware of that I changed my routine as an average girl. I realized that I tried to make myself all pretty after I had completely fallen for Taehyung, just for him to notice me.

However, I kept on thinking that this would not work and to make him fall in love with me back? Well, it could be worth a shot...

But what if he has a heart for someone already? I know I don't deserve him… but-

Tears started to form in my eyes. I tried to clear my mind by walking ahead. I did not want any attention from the people around me so I let my gaze down towards the floor. For every step I took, I cried harder... I walked faster and faster from time-to-time.

I was even not aware of my surroundings that I bumped into someone. I then rubbed my eyes and slowly looked up. To my surprise, it was none other than the man who I fell for.

"Kim.. K-Kim Taehyung..." I whispered, as I buried my face on his chest.

I really felt a little happy that I got the 'butterflies in my stomach' feeling, it was a light feeling yet a little embarrassed on what I suddenly got myself into as I was not thinking rationally.

I was satisfied by his reaction as he just stood still. It gave me hope.

As he was about to say something, "I... I..."

Unexpectedly...

"Yah! We've been looking everywhere for you!" a voice of an unknown man said.

The steps became closer and closer until I could be so sure that he was holding onto the man I got feelings for.

I looked up and saw the familiar faces that came towards me and they were none other than BTS!

I realized on what I had done, my feelings became all jumbled up, I could not believe that I could not differentiate which is which, I felt- terrible and disgusted with my feelings as that could mean I loved two people the same way.

Without any hesitation, I just turned away and ran with all my life... searching for an exit to get right out of the place, even in the state of a messed up mind.

I could also say I almost had gone crazy!

It is not him, it is not him, it is not him!

I cried more than I had to, my brain was still processing those words a thousand times... till at the end, I found myself running towards the main entrance, a small miracle.

I did not even care for the people that I let myself bump into, I just focused on my emotions; trying... to fix them. I had went outside but my legs were not giving up yet on running forward. My mindset told me to run further... further away from V.

On the other hand, the weather matched with the situation I was in. It was raining heavily at that time, the dark aura from the skies and all the gloomy feeling... had absorbed into my body, taking over. I did not even mind of getting myself to be soaked under the rain. My heart just ached more than ever.

Kim Taehyung is my first love, I'm sure of it... but why- why do I feel so confused because of V?  Why am I getting so emotional... Why do I hate myself for this?! I need you, Tae... Right now... Please... save me... I'm falling...

As my vision blurred with the massive sheds of tears, I could not see what was ahead of me but I just continued my journey, without thinking of any consequences I was about to face. I ended up stopping in the middle of somewhere...